Aging

Ok, ok....i update my blog already....hahaha.
(jgn la marah sam.....refer kepada chat box di sebelah kiri)

A while ago, my husband just gave me a whole lot of money. Saya ingat sebab ape la kan...ingat suruh pi beli kasut Nine West yang saya dok teringin tu. Then he said, 'ni duit untuk rumah. you manage this money.'

Shaayytt....terus la aku jadi accountant/bendahari kan. Aku tak pernah ada degree in accountancy, how to manage money? Hahaha....alasan untuk lari dari tanggungjawab. This are some of the things that i have to learn and do. Manage money. Bukan seratus, dua ratus, tiga ratus, empat ratus, lima ratus. Lebih dari itu....huhuuh. But like i said...this are the things i have to learn and do. But anyway, being married force me to change.....its for the better. I feel like a coward and a loser if i dont take responsibility. And its a waste if i stay the same way (not improving).

Anyways....

Have you ever feel old? Haha....i know you will deny. But age will catch up with you, my fren. Even if you dont feel old, certain things will not be the same. When i was younger....during Uni time, i will sleep late almost everyday. Play game la, chatting la, browsing la, studying la, movies la, bowling la, late supper la, lepak-lepak la....all that and i was able stay wide awake. Nowadays, i cant even make it pass 11 pm. I will feel sleepy. Dulu dengar bang Subuh baru la nak tido (pastu missed kelas la kan). Tido dalam 4, 5 jam pun ok. Skang kena 8 jam, baru aku happy. Me, im feeling neutral. Im feeling my age....but i will always have the kid inside me. Im not feeling old, but like i said...age will catch up with you, and you will realize things are a bit different.

And mind you....age is NOT just a number. It is a number and everything else.

With aging comes responsibility, comes wrinkles, comes wisdom, comes 'kendur-kendur'....comes lesser energy, comes so many other things. Like what I have discussed with a friend some time ago, imagine if you're 40 yrs old, are you still gonna jump around in a disco? Is it still the same when you were 21 and jumping in disco? Of course its different isnt it? Kalo ko still pergi disco umur 40, ko memang buang tebiat, in denial nak mampos la kan. Or anybody think its normal?....hahahh.

The thing you can do is, having a fresh mind. Dont be to stressful about anything, live life light, fun and simple. Take care of your health, take care of others too. Be reasonably open-minded. Be in touch with your spiritual junk (ingat ugama plis). Have many friends, young and old. At this age, you should have kids as friends....as well as old people. Not only people your age. Knowledge and wisdom will make you young and fresh, not 'acting young' like a retard. So many other things to 'retain' your age and not be 'old' with time.

Lemme show you an example of a person who is living in denial and a person who is aging and living her life happy.

Madonna

















































Ellen DeGeneras












































Madonna is like 50 yrs old. You might know, Madonna strive very hard to maintain her physique and looks. She did a whole lot of yoga, pilates, cosmetic surgery and many other things we never heard of.....she wears inappropriate clothes at her age, which ironically, makes her look older. She worries too much of growing old....and now she becomes what she's afraid off. Maybe worse.

Ellen DeGeneras is also like 50 yrs old (and a lesbian). But she dress appropriately, she's nice (see her talk show), always happy and smiling.....and who looks better...you tell me.

I rest my case. Till my next post.....x0x0

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Post-Wedding

Hello....Salam and hyenas...ahahks.

Its now 3 weeks after my wedding. We're still feeling the post-wedding feeling. The posters are still in the house, the leftover cards are still there, the leftover chocolates are still there. Sometimes you can still see tiny shreds of bunga rampai on the floor by the wall. The dried flowers are not all gone yet. Its not really over yet. The inai on my nails is still red (ok, not red.....orange maybe. it was red 3 weeks ago tho). The wedding gives great memories to me. It was stressful preparing for it. Malay wedding is always extra-stressful. But now, all the stress i experienced has become sweet memories. All the kalut ribut makes me smile now. And also my friends around me who was excited as well...hehe. My office-mates, my school friends, my uni friends...it was great pleasure seeing your faces on those days.

Malam sebelum akad-nikah tu, kak ipar saya (orang utara, seGeng la dgn Din tu) - Kak Ija merangkap ketua department inai pada malam itu....dan adik saya si Fazie tu tolong letakkan inai kat tangan saya. Inai tu henna la kan. Inai tu dapat mana? Ada pokok inai rupanya mak saya tanam kat luar tu. Pelik plak....mak aku memang dah plan nak pakai ke, gi tanam pokok tu awal-awal? Anyway, saya pun amik la daun, tumbuk-tumbuk. Dan malam itu bila sampai masanya untuk dipakai;

Kak Ija: ain, awat pi tumbuk lagu ni?
Me: apsal? ain tumbuk cemana?
Kak Ija: mana bleh pakai lagu ni...
Me: awat? (dan-dan tiba2 bertukar cakap utara)
Kak Ija: ain kena tumbuk haluih-haluih. sampai dia jadi cam paste. baru bleh lekat kat tangan. kalu dia hancoq lagu ni mana bleh lekat kat tangan ni.
Me: (uh oh, akad esok....bile lagi aku nak pakai inai kalau tak malam ni) alamak, bih tu cemana?
Kak Ija: takpa, kita terai dulu hak ni...

So, there i was. Sitting there stiff. With my fingers and toes berlumuran daun inai yang tidak hancur lumat. After almost 3 hours, "Adeh, sakit belakang, nak baring sket". Right on that damn moment, daun2 inai jatuh berguguran dari jari. Me, being a person who has a very thin patience snapped and say "Thats it. I'm done with this inai. Dah la susah nak lekat. Pastu warna pun tak terang mana". But who to blame but me. Aku yang tumbuk tak hancur. Aku pun tak tau kena tumbuk sampai hancur, serious. At last, we resort to wearing inai from the tube.

Resulting in inai merah menyala like this. Dah dua lapis inai kan. memang merah menyala la. tapi cam over sket kan? Tapi aku suke siot.... hahahha, menyala merah....

Next day, that was Friday, 20/11, the akad-nikah day. It was schedule to be at around 5 pm, after Asar prayer. Uncles and Aunties from Kelantan and around came to be in the event. My sister has arrange fresh beautiful flowers around the house. We heat up aromatherapy in house. The house looks cozy with sweet smell of aromatherapy. My 'groomer' came early to do my make up. It was fun being dolled up and made up. I'll miss all this! As time pass by, my heart beats faster and faster. Tapi sebenarnye aku tak payah nervous. Sebab ini hari Din. Din la yang nervous....pengantin perempuan tunggu je kan...wahahaha. Aku pun berjaya menenangkan hati dan lepak menunggu bakal suami. Tapi risau jugak kot-kot tiba-tiba dia jadi gagap tak pasal-pasal kan. Atau gugup, hyperventilate ke, pastu pengsan kan. Atau berpeluh terlalu banyak sampai air peluh membanjiri muka sampai dia tak boleh bercakap. Atau kena buli dengan tok kadi kaw kaw sampai jadi stress mengamuk tak jadi kawin ke. Maybe i imagine too much....

Masa tu kawan lama saya dari sekolah sampai menemankan saya....Farah dan Khom (thanx man, I love you guys la).

Tiba masanya, pengantin lelaki sampai. Lebih kurang pukul 5 gitu. Perfect timing. He was wearing his white baju melayu dengan sampin songket dan songkok. Aku pakai baju kurung modern putih dengan bertudung litup....haha. Aku dengan kontrol machonya turun tangga pelan-pelan. Diiringi Farrah and Khom and Auntie saya. Padahal selalu aku lompat turun dua anak tangga sekali tu ko tau!....hahaha. Ngok ngek ngok ngek, pot pet pot pet....pastu tok kadi suruh dia istighfar, ucap shahadah, dan selawat. Dia jawab semua dengan tenang, sekali dengan nafas je. Abah saya sendiri yang mengahwinkan Din dan saya.....dan Din jawab lafaz akad sekali sahaja smooth, clean and clear.....cam ubat jerawat gitu.

Right that moment, I'm a wife. Din turn to me and give me a smile that i would never forget, ever. Dengan lafaz nyata itu, dan niat dari hati Din dan kebenaran wali dari Abah saya, secara rasminya saya dah jadik bini dia. That moment, reality hasnt hit me yet....lalalla. And that nite.....jeng jeng jeng hahaha.....he went back to his house and I sleep alone. Cos we gotta get ready for the kenduri pula the next day, Saturday. No rush man, we have our whole life together afterwards. The important event is done. Syukur Alhamdulillah, semua lancar. Timing cantik. Cuaca cantik. Tetamu gembira. Its already near perfect, just as we like it.

And that evening, we had a blast taking photos.

Saya berterima kasih sangat dekat keluarga yang banyak menolong (tolong dengan tenaga, dengan duit.....atau hanye dengan kehadiran masing-masing) dan juga rakan-rakan yang datang. Rakan-rakan lama, dan tak berapa lama dan yg baru pun ada. Rakan-rakan opis, rakan-rakan sekolah RZ, rakan-rakan Uni. You know who you are, susah aku nak sebut nama-nama ni....aku takut betul kot tertinggal nama. Dan rasanya mesti ramai yang datang, tapi tak jumpe aku yang mungkin agak busy hari tu. So, aku tatau la siapa korang, siapa suruh tak jumpe aku.....ekekkee. Thank you, too. Photos will up uploaded into facebook very soon.

Take care all.

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Wedding Post

Salam and hye-nas

How are you all doing? Great? And then all of you would as me....'Are You Ready?'

And my answer? 'Im as ready as i can be. I am so ready, you cant ever imagine.' There...hahahaha.

This friday, moment after Din has said the solemnization - im his wife. Really, im ready. But whats actually to be ready?

If you're talking about material preparation, it is going really well. The preparation starts right after my engagement. I was just about to bask in the warmth of the engagement, when suddenly i have to rush and get everything ready. Thanx to my parents who actualy force me to get everything ready, early. I mean they can really be like Terminator robots sometimes. If i delay things, they can be like destructive robots that gives no mercy....makes you have no choice but to get moving and rush things. Well, actually it was a good thing because things got ready in time now. And of course they know that i will procrastinate, so they rush me =D.

But you know, no matter how early you start, you will feel choked up nearing the date. You would still feel like you dont have enough time for many things. Everything got very hectic and there are things that went wrong. Like not enough cards la, videographer run away la (hahaha!), my cat got really sick, money problem, missunderstandings, and some others. All that stresss me, but its nothing. Semangat nak kawin tu sangat kuat for me to fall apart....hehe.

And emotionally? Well, it feels all mixed up. I feel elevated. Of course im happy and excited to start my own government. And yes, its a lie if i didnt think i would miss my singlehood. But life moves on. Life cannot be stagnant at one state only. Some things changes. Even if you dont wanna change, your environment and the people around you will change. And you, might be left behind. We move from being in one state, to another state. It applies at any aspect in our life. And i dont know why, there is a tiny feeling of sadness. Why? Beats me, i dont know. Maybe because i will live far away from parents, my one and only sister, my little naughty nephew....and errm.....free food....hahahaha =D

Alah, takdenye far away pun sebenarnye kan.....20 minit je. Mengada-ngada kan aku ni!!

My hearthas started to mellow down. It actually softens. I feel the love from parents and family. Although as i said earlier, they can be like terminators....i can feel their love and at these times, you cant help but feel thankful for the family tou have. I was not an easy daughter. I rebel and i know i did hurt them before. But they are my parents who took care of me, until i can talk back to them....tiada galang-gantinya. This is the times when you think and look back of what you did as a child because soon you will be a parent too. This is the cycble of life. And of course, not forgetting my friends around me. I thank you for being there with me...for listening and talking to me.

Friends ask, 'Are You Nervous?'. Well actually, i think i have nothing to be nervous....hehehe. I want to be married to him....so what is nervous? You tell me. Mungkin nervous sebab takot terpele'ot kaki masa jalan.....hahaha. And mungkin incik din la yang nebes....gitu? =P

And of course, there is one huge feeling in my heart....which is the love i have for this guy. I love him, what else can i say. If i can find a better word than this, i would say it. But this is the best word i have....I love him, to infinity. There is nothing in this world that i would change for this...

And i really hope i wont cry on my akad nikah this friday....big potential i would cry. If i cry, that would be embarassing....hahaa.

There.....my wedding post. Till next time.....as a wife =)

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Only Pictures

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Me and Him

Hyenass...

Wow.....tempoh masa saya bergelar bujang sudah hampir tamat. Huahuahua....cam tak percaya. Rasa macam mimpi-mimpi gitu.

So looking back during my engagement time. Orang kata, masa bertunang ni, masa kritikal. Masa-masa ni la banyak cabaran dan dugaan untuk menguji. Saya banyak tanya orang pasal ni. Saya tanya kawan-kawan rapat, betul ke tiba-tiba hubungan jadi pelik dan turbulent. Ramai yang cakap betul. Banyak benda boleh jadi dan berubah. Macam, selalu dia suke kaler biru, tiba-tiba suka kaler pink plak kan. Jadi saya pun bersedia je la.

But im actually excited to go through the time. Im simply ready to see what is going to happen and whats going to change during the engagement. But you know what?...we just swift through the engagement time...swiftly! Alhamdulillah, tak ada masalah. Semuanya ok....in fact, aku lagi mengada-ngada, manja nak mampus dengan dia ada la...hahahah. I think mainly just be normal as before, InsyaAllah, semua ok-ok je. Tak payah tiba-tiba kena membesarkan perkara yang selama ni, tak besar pun.

There is a short period of time before the engagement, where we fight a lot. A short period of darkness. Gaduh sampai nak terbalik dunia. Tapi nasib baik kejap je. We got back on track. In fact, its even better than before. Jadi mungkin Tuhan kata..."cukup-cukup la. kasi diorg lepak plak nak kawin ni".

I've always feel that i will end up with this guy. You know, sometimes you have that feelings....that intuition 'this is the person im gonna end up with'. There is no maths to it...you cant count it, you cant measure it, you cant ask why....you simply have that feelings.

Walaupun saya dah ada feelings macam tu, pada masa yang sama saya selalu fikir, boleh ke saya hidup dengan dia. Sebab we are 2 very different people. Its like he's from the other end of the world and has been living with his tribe all his life. And me, im from the other side of the world living with my own tribe.....and we have never met. The thing is, we're so different!

He's a person who lives by rules. He follows rules. He's the proper one. He thinks about people around him, a lot. He is a calm person and acts carefully. Maybe cos he has a lot of responsibility....career-wise and family-wise. He is a very secretive and private person. He keeps personal things very close to himself. He has procedures and has plans for everything....heck he even has a backup plan for most things. I think he secretly has a backup plan for a backup plan. I mean, its like we're living in a space shuttle circling the orbit in space. What if we hit a rock? What if we run out of oxygen? What if we found a flying cow? He follows what suppose to be done. He controls things....and people too, godamnit. And oh, he's a ManU.

And me.....generally i have no rules....hahaha. I am not proper. I become bored very easily and that makes me do things that is a bit abnormal, regardless what people think. Im full of emotions, not calm. I can get pumped up and excited easily. I dont have plans. I love spontaneity and act spontaneously. I do silly things for my own fun and amusement and i prank people (him...ahaks). Im lurus bendul also. In terms of privacy, i tend to blurt things out and i dont play behind the bush. I know what i like to do, regardless if its not hip or what people say...or how freaky or geeky it is. And what if anything happen? Redah je! And im a Chelsea.

But god knows, how we can click. I think thats what we call compatibility (and of course, jodoh). We complete each other. You cant really live with a person who is exactly like yourself, because its hard to see things in different perspective. You can be lost in track as its maybe hard to see if something is going wrong. You imagine, a slacker living with a slacker. Everything just....slack!

There are certain things that i have to serious, and he always remind me of that. And i always makes fun of his uptightness and try to loosen him a bit. Opposite simply loves and attracts.

Im gonna be a bit busy these few weeks. Till next (distant)time people....

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Your Health

Hyenas....How are you? Good?

No, I really mean how are you? Have you been eating healthily? Do some exercise? Are you healthy?

Satu benda yang saya selalu fikirkan sekarang ni, ialah kesihatan. Now i think of what i eat. Try to make my heart pump harder every now and then. Try to make my muscle and bone work more and also gives my brain something to think and work on.

No, im not becoming one of those skinny freaks who count every teeny weeny calories in their food. Those people are different than me, my dear friend. They only worry about being fat. That's it, period. Me on the other hand....is trying to stay healthy. I think it is great importance for everyone to know, skinny doesnt mean healthy.

I am taking care of what i eat. Limit certain things and eat more of good things. You have to know what food to limit...and what food to substitute the food that you limit. Bukan nak kena pantang larang sakan pun. Just eat the things that you like. But if u know those are the ones that can deteriorate you health, then limit it. If u feel that you are already eating it moderately, then great.

I like to elaborate and share with you more...cos i love to write, but im afraid it will be boring and i hate my post to be boring....hahaha. But its sure a good thing for you to get some information on it. Oh, and one more important thing, exercise. It is important to work your muscle and bones or you'll be frail and weak too soon. Do cardio and work your heart. Keep it burning bebeh. Like my bro, he is big built. He is big. But he plays tennis, a lot. And he has a good heart pumping his blood and a good blood pressure, eventho he has a biiiiig body.

And also...work your brain. Do some reading, some work for the brain like crossword puzzle ke...or when u get old, you will be closer to being nyanyuk! Close to Alzheimer disease. Work it baby....work it!

Dulu kan, saya mana fikir pun pasal ni sume. Main taram makan, sume masuk mulut. Konon-konon masa muda mudi ni la time nak taram makanan kan. Orang tak fikir masa muda ni la penyakit tengah berura-ura dan merancang hendak keluar! Bile umur dah naik sikit....BAM! Kencing manis, darah tinggi, arthritis, kebas-kebas...or god forbid, any terminal disease. All those are accumulated masa kite muda....ok. Masa muda mudi ni bukan masa untuk membuli badan sendiri.

I am in good condition it seems now. I have heaps of energy. My body is functioning well and nothing is limiting me from anything. Alhamdulillah. Im planning to keep it that way. What makes me think and share this with you? Semua timbul sebab saya nak kawin ni la....hahaha. I realize, i have to take care of myself and another dear life in my heart, who is my husband. And soon maybe the little ones, InsyaAllah. We want to live long and build our own legacy. Im even reminding my whole dear family about health.

So take care all. Dont take it for granted. We can make it good.

Till next time.....x0x0.

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Raya Post.

Hye-naasss......good day all! =D

Berlalulah sudah Ramadhan, sebulan berpuasa......no, im not singing that raya song by Anuar Zain & Elina. Its really the end of Ramadhan. It has been Syawal for the past 1 week. Lets hope the changes we made during Ramadhan, stays for good. And i cant listen to anymore raya songs, or i'll puke.....like, seriously!

My raya was good. Had fun with my little cousins and funky uncles and aunties. Tahun ni saya banyak kena usik....hahaha. Semua pakat nak mengajar macam-macam benda kat saya. Ada suruh saya dengan Din makan 'telur' kambing nak kasi 'kuat'.....hahaha merepek. Kang pastu mengembek plak kan. Ada ngajar macam mana nak suap suami la....ada suruh saya pakai kaftan la....for 'easy access'. Hahaha.....they are on fire okayyy!

I also realize its my last raya being single....

And somebody is going far away. Encik DinDang akan berada di Amsterdam pada 29hb ni. He'll be going there for work.....(and of course a few days of lepaking). And he's going without me. Without me! Dia kata mana bleh ikot....sebab kan belum kawin. I hate him. Going to Amsterdam without me. And he said he's gonna watch football match in London cos its in season....well, thank you that makes me hate him more.

But actually, saya kena terima hakikat sebenar la kan, ahahah.....saya memang tak boleh ikot dia keje, sebab kitorang belum kawin pun. We might get our heads chopped off by both our parents if we go together. We might as well dig our own grave if we go....oh well....he promised me another trip soon. Whatever....(tidak dapat menerima hakikat).

Then he said....'tu la, org soh kawin awal tak nak'. Huhuuh....i say that to him ok!

Selamat hari raya. Selamat menghadiri open house. This is the month of feasting with great sinful food. Take care what u eat. I will be doing open house. I hope we have the time for it. Have fun..

Till next time.......x0x0

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Ciggies

Hyenas....

Banyak sungguh la iklan anti rokok. Merata-rata kempen anti rokok. But i think it failed. It phailed!.....big time. Because i think it doesnt work that way. I mean, setakat kempen-kempen anti rokok ni, perokok tak pandang pun. Membazir duit kerajaan je. I saw satu iklan anti rokok. Yang orang ramai-ramai baca surah Yaasin (a Muslim recitation to someone who is dead) dekat perokok tu. Smokers just laugh. Iklan-iklan penyakit kat kotak rokok tu, diorang takde perasaan pun. Diorang mungkin geli masa mula-mula pandang tu, tapi tangan dah pegang rokok dah. Tunggu ape lagi....light je la rokok tu kan.

Memang tiada kesan.

How i know? Because i know. I have been battling with this myself....hahaha. Trying to make this someone to stop smoking.

I have been trying to make my fiance stop smoking for a long time. Before he met me, he smoke a box a day. After we become serious, i feel responsible to take care of him (years ago). I ask him to stop. But then i understand that it is hard to stop. So i ask him to reduce. Baik kan saya? See, im not a medusa (go figure). I dont force, im a very tolerable person. Then we have an agreement about how many cigarettes he can have one day. I trust him to follow the agreement. I am not doing a queen control.....i just CARE. The agreement dated years ago...and it goes on until this very moment.

I have some friends who smoke too. And i realize the thing is, the smoker will only stop, if he wants to stop. That is the very annoying thing about it. I realize this means he doesnt want to stop yet. The smokers doesnt want to stop yet! They see a picture of a gangrene leg because of smoking, and they say..."gamba tu bukan gamba orang sakit hisap rokok, tu gamba eksiden. Penipu."

Doesnt it make u sweat now? Rasanye kalau orang-orang kerajaan yang bertanggungjawab dengan kempen ni dengar camtu, menitik-nitik peluh diorang.

So when do they stop? They will stop when something hit them. Meaning, when suddenly there's something that make them think....that they have to stop already. That time, is elusive. Im not sure when. Im not sure how. Some people stop when they have kids. Some people stop when they got married. Some people stop when they see the pure face of their newborn baby. Some people will stop when someone close to them died because of smoking. Someone even decide to stop smoking when the see a beautiful sunrise.

Maybe some certain people will stop......when i really become a medusa.

Me: I think its time to reduce ur cigarette.

Him: Eh, tak payah. Sekarang pun dah hisap kurang kuota.

Me: Oh, kalau camtu agi senang reduce kan?

Him: Tak payah reduce. Memang hisap kurang dah skang.

Me: What if our kids saw u smoke?

Him: I will NEVER ever let the kids see me smoke!

Me: *sulk....


This battle is not over yet =)

Till next time people....x0x0

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Employer Bertuah...!

Assalamualaikum....Hyenass all!

I haven't written anything for a few days. Its not that i have nothing to write. I have 1001 things to write, but the topic is not suitable for Ramadhan....hahaha. Cos it involves me saying things straight from my heart. So i have to find some 'softer' topic to write.

Can call me hypocrite.....cos i do feel hypocrite sometimes. Cos after Ramadhan i could be the same 'me' again. But i just have much respect for this holy month. I have intention to be better actually. But....i mean....im not that bad i think. I dont have much to change, do i? Im not a social person who lives on booze, all doped-up, promiscous, un-ashamed girl who comes home at 6am on most days. Walaubagaimanapun, ada jugak yang perlu berubah. I will try.

Bulan Ramadhan ni, memang tercabar gak rasanya. Tercabar dek oleh perbuatan employer baru saya. Orang-orang IT mungkin tahu apa terjadi pada EDS. Kalau tak tahu, takpe. Kalau nak tahu, tanya-tanya la orang. Employer baru yang declare kaya, tapi cakap putar-belit...nak bayar salary bulan-bulan pun putar belit. Employer yang cakap berdegar-degar, kata product terjual paling banyak di dunia, business yang maju segala...tapi nak kasi paycut secara tersirat. Pastu cakap putar alam. Dalam hati memang dah berbakul-bakul mencarut-carut.

I wonder if mencarut dalam hati, mencarut di mulut dan mencarut di blog, sama atau tak. Rasanya agak sama gak kot. Sebab yang penting kena sabar....haihh. Tapi kami memang marah dengan employer baru kami....Hopeless Prick. (oh there, i just said something bad.... = ).

Tapi takpe, I refuse to dwell on it. They will lose their experienced employee (ekekek....cam bagus je employee). I just wish to have a decent good job with good decent salary nowadays. A job that makes me work with sincerity. A job that will make me strive and not make me work half-heartedly. But like i said, im not gonna dwell on it. Im not a dweller at all. There is so much other things for me to be happy about.

Life gives you lemon, you make lemonade out of it. Life gives you apple, you make apple juice. Life give u shit?......there's still hope! You make compost(baja) out of it.....ahahah.

EDSers....we all feel mad and frustrated at how they treat us. Chill, we just need to re-tune our budget a bit.....

Till next time......x0x0.

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His Minor Operation

Hyenas all....

Well, its the fourth nite of Ramadhan. All is great, all is fine.

Last 23/8 was my birthday. So many people wished me. I am grateful for that. Thank you for the thoughts. I got a nice cake from my dad. And i got this exquisite expensive chocolate from Godiva.

I mean, from Din. The chocolate is from din....not from Godiva.

I am old.....like the vespa.... =D. I like vespa.... =D

Nothing is that interesting for me too write. Its just normal stuff every day. But whats interesting is, today Din has an appointment at Selangor Specialist Hospital. Its for his minor operation thingy. I offered to go with him. I know he can be there himself....but i offer to be with him, lending my hand....haha.

He actually injured his shoulder because of golf. He tore his shoulder muscle. I believe the cut on his muscle is because he swings so hard beyond what his muscle can handle. He does have a strong and long shot at golf. It has been haunting him for some time already, when at last he decided to see an orthopedic. This is his treatment - The doctor will suck out his blood....with a syringe. Then the doctor will mix his blood with some medicine or drug, then it will be injected in his torn muscle. I have been told of this treatment beforehand.

So, we get to the doctor's office. The doc straight away pierce the inside of his elbow and draw out some blood, and get it to the lab to get it mixed. Ok, i can handle that. Blood is no problem for me. I can have my dinner while watching a heart operation, no biggie.

Then came something else. The doctor wore his latex glove and put some iodine on this shoulder. Then he took one needle besar kakloh, and dengan selambayaya cucuk bahu dia. Besar siot needle tuh! I almost had my heart attack when i see the doctor tonyoh-tonyoh jarum tu masuk dalam bahu dia. Then he pushed in more until the whole-goddam-big-ass-needle were all in his shoulder. The length of the needle is around one finger (my finger), and the whole length is in his shoulder. Then dia tonyoh-tonyoh jarum tu sume masuk. Pastu dia tolak tolak kiri kanan. I was like, cant breathe.....when suddenly i heard his laugh. That was shocking! He laugh because he thinks i was being funny....freaky. I cant breathe and he thinks i was being funny. I expect some pain from him.....but he laughed!

Thats not all.....itu baru bius. I wish there is a bius before bius.....u know....the bius itself is painful. So if there would be a bius before bius....and then bius before bius before bius before bius.....that would be great....huhuuh.

Then came another big ass needle....the same thing happen. Just the needle is the one that will put in his mixed blood into the muscle. Again....the doctor tonyoh-tonyoh....tolak-tolak the needle in. Push left and right. Nampak sangatlah menyakitkan. But surprisingly, he doesnt let out a single whimp. Tatau la kot incik Din kontrol macho kot?....ahahha. But i know he's brave enough and it takes a lot for him to feel the pain. Cuma hantu je yang dia takot.....huahuahuahua.

Now im traumatized. The person who went to lend the hand was traumatized and the pesakit was fine. That totally defeats the purpose. Dah la esok nak bwat HIV test....kena cucuk amik darah jugak.

I feel slightly faint thinking about the HIV test......huhuh.

Anyway, i hope he's doing fine. Dah la dia sorang.....kesian dia....tuh la, org suruh kawin awal, tanak....hahah.

Until next time.....x0x0.

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PUasa Ya'll!

Hye....Hyenas.

Wah....dah nak puasa! Isnt it great? Mengikot astrological month, kita akan puasa 22/9 ni kan? Tapi kite kena mengikut fadilat Islam dan tunggu anak bulan yang comel tu. Ramadhan is my favourite month. The Fasting month and its special. For this one month, we change our lifestyle a bit and its not gonna be the same as other month. The food, the lifestyle.....everything.

Masa nak sahur tu, memang agak sakai la kan, sebab memang mengantuk! Time menagement adalah sangat penting di sini. Bukan sahaja masa bersahur, kena manage time untuk berbuka puasa juga. Kena la tido awal sket. Kalau selalu malam-malam gi clubbing, tak payah la gi. Sebab kalau tido awal lagi bagus kan. Takde la esok pagi, time sahur tertido atas nasi. Karang terbangun dah pagi, dengan nasi dalam lubang hidung dan kuah sardin kering kat pipi. Time menagament lagi la penting terutamanya jika anda sudah berkahwin. Kena siapkan makanan sebelum tido. Kena bangun awal sediakan makanan. Kena kejut suami. Tapi apa-apa pun, sahur adalah sunat yang besar dan penting yang membezakan puasa kita dengan puasa-puasa 'yang lain' - yang bukan seperti Ramadhan. Dia nak hampir kepada wajib dah. Lupe la apa nama sunat tu.....sesiapa yang tahu, sila ingatkan saya plis.

Time puasa tu sendiri, banyak perkara yang kita kena kontrol. This month is when we can control many things. Control kewangan, pemakanan (thats your health), patience, self control (banyak perkara), time management....dan banyak lagi. If we go deeper into these matters, then we learn more. Banyak perkara boleh tulis pasal ni, so thats for you to find if you're interested. The things that we are not suppose to do during fasting is important to shape us up into a better person. Thats self-control. Its all to toughen us up into a better person and a better Muslim. One of it, is no sex during the day. I was just thinking, lucky that im not married before Ramadhan.....hahahhha. If not......bummer.

And fasting is not a bad feeling at all. Its no-eating (and not doing things that you're not suppose to do) only for around 12 hours everyday...not 2 weeks. Kita sebenarnye digalakkan meneruskan hari-hari seperti biasa. Kalau petang-petang kite selalu jogging, go ahead and do it while fasting. We still have to take care of our health. Kalau selalu main golf, main jer la. Orang dekat India tu lagi panas. Rilek je puasa kan. Cume berpada-pada la. Jangan sampai pengsan-pengsan atas padang golf akibat dehydrated. Main 9 hole cukup la kan, yang? (talking to DiN =p)Pandai-pandai la jaga diri.

Nothing beats being hungry and thirsty the whole day....then later set the table ready for break-fast, then when the que comes (the azan)....we dig in! Its an awesome feeling. Especially when we are somehow, in the privillage to eat what we like when break-fast. Like we deserve a treat. Then dengan perut yang bloated...semayang terawih...hahahh. Then malam sikit, makan bubur jagung. Dem!...eheheh.

Tapi agak pelik, kite ambil tahu apa yang kite tak boleh buat je di bulan puasa. Kita lupakan perkara yang baik dibuat di bulan puasa. Seperti sedekah, belanja orang berbuka, dan banyak lagi la benda-benda lain. So, ambil la tahu. Pesanan ini untuk saya sendiri. Saya tahu, pembaca-pembaca blog saya bukan budak-budak muda. Kite kena ambil tahu. We are responsible for our own self.

Banyak lagi boleh ditulis pasal Ramadhan. Tapi saya rasa kite semua dah banyak belajar tentang bulan puasa ni. Kalau tak, read up dan bertanya kepada yang tahu. Saya bukan la orang yang berilmu tinggi. Saya cuma ingin ingat-mengingati sesama kita. Saya share apa yang terlintas dalam kepala otak saya. A lot more things to dig and know.

Dan juga, kite kena meminta maaf kepada rakan-rakan, ibu bapa, dan suami-isteri anda.

Selama berpuasa and have fun while you're at it....xoxo

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Ke mana Duit saya?

Assalamualaikum and hyeee naaa..s...

Its the darn freakin weekend ya'll...

Apakah perkara yang anda sanggup perabis duit? Benda yang membuatkan anda cair dan
lembik lutut.....hingga membuatkan anda sanggup mengosongkan wallet dan menjadi papa (kedana) sehingga gaji seterusnya? Hahaha....takkan takda kot korang. We all have our weaknesses.

Huhuuh....

I just spent quite a lot of money on something. You wanna guess i spent on what? Adakah anda cakap handbag? Salah! Adakah anda teka kasut? Salah lagi! Dresses? Lagi-lagi salah! Those are not the things that makes me lembik lutut, lalu merancang sebuah rompakan....atau tiba-tiba menggoda boifren saya supaya belanja saya beli.........tidak.

Saya beli buku. Yer, buku. I love books. I mean......i LOVE books! =D. Sounds so geeky arent i? Ehehehe. Dan yer, saya akan menggoda boifren saya supaya membelikan saya sebuah buku yang agak mahal.....ngeee =D

For me books are just magical stuff. Some people tak suke, cam Din tu. I think, a lot of people are traumatized by books....ehehe. You know, we have to read for exams our whole life. So when they see books/reading, they will relate it to stress. When i got into bookstore, there are so many things to read and know. It pains me when i know there are so many things that i dont know.....hahaha. Ada banyak sangat jenis buku yang langsung tak stress. Sebagai seorang yang sangat suke food for thoughts, i just love books....dan yer, saya boleh spend beratus-ratus untuk buku sahaja. Dan buku ni, bukan hanya pada novel. Ada buku pasal macam2 perkara. Buku belajar bawak kapal terbang pun ada.

Satu lagi benda yang saya sanggup belanja ribu-ribuan sampai hampir mama kedana, ialah untuk DSLR camera saya. Camera saya biasa je. Canon 400D. Ok la tu....tak la hebat sakan kan. Ok la untuk amatur cam saya. Specs dia dah cantik molek dah. Tapi dalam tak hebat mana tu, ribu-ribu jugak la habis kan....haha. Lens dia saje dah ribu-ribuan. Tu pun bukan original. Dengan speed-lite lagi kan. Tapi takpe, mak suke you!

Saya juga sanggup spend duit untuk aktiviti gitar saya....hehe. Saya dah spend beberapa ratus untuk belajar gitar....dan saya sangat suke. Jari-jari sakit sampai kematu ke ape ke....saya tetap main gak, sebab teringatkan duit yg byk spend kat gitar ni....haha. Ni nak kena beli tuner plak ni kan. Tunggu la.....saya tulis lagu nanti....kasi Siti Nurhaliza nyanyi...eheh.

Ke situ ler saya spend duit. Cara saya spend duit adalah lebih kepada kepuasan hati dan untuk hobi. Pastu shopping sket-sket gitu.....

Jadi jangan la rasa bersalah kerana anda baru sahaja spend duit yang banyak untuk beli komik tu....hahahaha. We have our weaknesses. Cuma, jangan la terover spend kan. Kena ingat duit nak makan bulan tu paling minimum cukup ke tidak. Nak bagi untuk mak bapak bulan tu cukup ke tidak. Jangan sampai berlakon papa kedana kat kaki lima kerana baru menghabiskan duit untuk membeli patung transformers =D. Kalau camtu, kau kena re-tune balik what is your priority. Kau nak makan patung transformers tu ke....ko nak makan nasik lauk ikan terubuk bakar cicah air asam dgn sup tulang yang panas2 tu.

But nowadays i have to save some money cos i will be using it quite a lot. Kata nak kawin kan. Kawin ni memang makan duit je kerjenye. Pastu nak beli carpet hijau untuk apartment la. Nak beli cermin untuk hall la. Its ok farin....slowly.

Till next time....happy spending. Tengah mega sale ni... =D

x0x0

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How to kill time....

Hyena....

I usually write about other things....other than me. I like to write about random stuff. But cut me some slack this time.....cos i wanna write about me. I was being honest here......

Do you love your ex?: errmmm.....im not sure. i forgot.....hahahh.
Would you ever go back out with an ex?: gosh....epic stupidest question!
What did you last cry over?: A movie.....called The Guitar.
Who was the last person you said I love you to?: My boifren.....
Where do you want to be?: southern part of france.....haha. near the mediteranean area...
What's the last movie you watched?: The Guitar....eh, no....wrong! the movie is called Garden State..
Do you honestly love your friends?: yeah.....the worthy ones....
Who hates you?: i dont care.....
Have you ever used a condom?: i do not need to use a condom....i dont have that thing....u know...that thing. im a girl!
Are you a virgin?: well answer this first.......are you a virgin?
Is your boyfriend/Girlfriend a virgin?: ask him la....
Ever been in true love?: yes......im in one now....
Done drugs?: no la......silly
Gotten high?: well......hhmmmmm.....
How much do you weigh?: 51.4 kgs
How tall are you?: 165 cm
Made fun of a fat person?: well......i tried not too....well...mostly no.
Gone skinny dipping?: nooo.....intsresting idea isnt it? wait till i buy my own island ok..
Given a lap dance?: hhmm......huh?
Made-out?: oi!.....
Seen the opposite sex naked?: what the hell....ask 'behave' question plis....
Ever been Horney?: what is horney? or horny? do u mean honey? no i've never been honey before
Looked at porn?: what? what is porn? i know no porn....
Own any thongs?: what is thong? can u please tell me what is thong?
Touched a genital of the other sex?: my god.......what the hell!
Thought about sex?: hiyaarrkkk! you know, im a person with class. i dont talk about this thing to people.
Had a "dirty" dream?: you have no rights to know, darn questions....
Would you prefer the lights on or off during sex?: hohohoh....im so gonna abandon this questionaire.....see my mood la...
Favorite animal?: leopard....oh i just love animals... =)
Least favorite animal?: kuman h1n1
Do you have a crush on someone?: yes....i have a crush on Bradley Cooper. especially when he has that crew cut...rambut cam askar tu....woweee.
What famous person do you (or other people) think you resemble?: hahaha....numerous people said i look like dynaz....celah mana tatau la
What is your favorite pizza topping?: pepperoni and extra cheese
What song do you hate the most?: my all time song that i hate is Macarena. makes me wanna go on a killing spree....
Is there anybody you just wish would fall off the planet?: yes....Mr. Bush. and the evil Israelis.
Where did you last go on vacation?: end of last year.....with my girlfriends and had a blast =D
Do you talk to yourself?: i do.......yes. what about you? yes i do....and you? yes i do too. sorry i was talking to myself just now. moving on.....
What superstition do you believe/practice?: my ingredients to make cake has to be in cool temperature....not very a superstition here...hehe...im not superstitious...
What song(s) do you sing most often in the shower?: Im Yours
Do you talk on your cell phone when you drive?: i do so......reaaalllly carefully
Would you make a fool out of yourself in public if it meant you were making your partner laugh?: yeah man....i would.....haha. i'd make a fool of myself for me laugh too
Do you judge people solely by their musical preferences?: i dont judge people with their music....i just wonder, like....why they even like that song!
Do you believe that dreams can be messages from a "higher level"?: no la....the other day i dream, i colour my hair blue. that would be one hell of a stupid message then...
Did America really put a man on the moon?: oh them? americans? they do eeeeeeeverything, isnt it? they are capable of doing eeeeeeverything isnt it?.....their leaders loves war and aaaaaaall of them support isnt it? they even eat shit, no?
Do you like bananas?: not that i hate bananas....its just not my favourite fruit. banana is like....weird.
What is your favorite song of all time?: this is hard. I like a lot of songs. I like Angels by Robbie Williams. I have some evergreen songs like by Muse, Stereophonics, Jason Mraz.....i just love music
If you could have one super human power what would you choose?: i want to be invincible....and invisible too....
What would you do if Michael Jackson asked you out: play dead....
Do you shower every single day?: yeah....contrary to popular belief....i actually smell nice =D
Aliens have landed and selected you to visit their home planet. Do you go with them?: only if after im sure they're nice....
If you had to pick one car, which would it be?: oh....i dont ask much....just the latest nissan skyline
Why did the chicken cross the road?: leave the chicken alonee.....
Do you read harry potter books?: nope.....dorks read that books....hahahha. oh u read harry potter?.....sorry....hehe, cool
If you have friends coming for supper what would you cook?: order pizza....
Do you say "I love you" in the relationship?: yeah man....why wouldnt you? you got issues man....
How many hobbies do you hav?: manyyyyyyy
Are you happy?: yes i am...

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Help Mother Nature

Hye...na....

I wanna ask a simple question. Do you love a sight of a beautiful landscape? Do you love and appreciate nature? Imagine this.....

- A beautiful clear turqoise sea and the white sand. The wind blowing with the great salty scent of the sea. The colourful eccentric creature down the sea. The pretty blue sky. You know how the sea looks and feel right?.........or...

- A beautiful clear cool waterfall and river which reflect the light on its surface like diamonds floating. Once in a while you can see fishies jumping out catching some bug above the water. You can do some fishing. The trees hovers above majestically...green, mystifying, natural, untouched. You can even jump in the river till u turn blue and shivering....

U watch the documentary and saw the majestic lion and the whimsicle elephant in the African dessert? Do you watch about the tigers or the amazon and think its all invaluable? Do you watch about the whale and dolphin and think they are awesome?

When you go to other country, say Phuket...or Switzerland, u feel its so pretty with all the pretty sea, mountain and the white snow. U love the cleanliness and crisp cool air. But when you come back to Malaysia, you throw rubbish and be irresponsible. There's a little hypocrisy there isnt it? Dont you love your own country? Ok then....say hi to Switzerland.

Of course you like all that right? Of course u like clean air. Beautiful landscape that makes u feel good. Going to beautiful country and enjoy yourself. Of course u like all that!

Do you believe in karma towards mother nature? You better believe it, cos when you're being reckless and irresponsible, it will backfire. Thus the arctic is melting and all the water will flow in the sea and lessen the land. Singapore, will be gone. I wonder what are the leaders of the world and doing about this. And now there are holes in the ozone which will bring the sunlight straight to the earth. That, my friend....can bring you skin cancer. Now you have to put a thick layer of sunscreen. Not like the people 30 yrs ago. They dont even know whats sunscreen. And so many other things can can affect us.

So help mother nature. Because if we continue being irresponsible and reckless in what we do everyday, all that will be gone. Be responsible! How? Example....

When u buy stuff, if its not big and easy to hold, refuse the plastic bag. Put the stuff in your bag or pocket. Better still, if u have your own shopping bag. Ikea is doing a great thing about this. They offer the durable shopping bag at RM1.90 that you can reuse everytime. Now, one plastik bag would cost 20 cents in Ikea. Other country has already adopted this kind of thinking. When i went to UK early this year, they dont give plastik bag. I once need a plastic bag there, and the cashier ask me for 10 pence....malu sket saya. We dont really think that way yet.....itu beza antara pemikiran negara maju, dan pemikiran orang Malaysia.

When you go to restaurant, use the tissue paper as what u need. Do not take it like u need to make a living out of it! Its not like "oh its ok....we already paid for it!". Yeah you did pay....and so does thousands of other people. But do they do take half of the tissue? Dont think like that. Again, i like to take Ikea for example. They put a notice at the tissue dispenser. It says "take only what you need". Thats the kind of thinking Malaysian need. We should change the way we think and not be like....kiasu. Thats one way to save nature and the trees...save the usage of tissue pape. And papers too. Print and use only what you need.

Others would be....save water. When you shampoo, sabun yourself, brush your teeth - turn off the tap.

Recycle papers and bottles (kaca/plastik/aluminium) whenever you can. Some say, "jual suratkhabar bukan dapat byk duit pun. 20 sen je". Alahai......itu pun nak kire ke! Just give the papers to the lorry or send it to the recycling centre. Try to get whole family and friends to do the same.

Turn off the electricy whenever you are not using. You feel so hot? I dont think you have to turn the air-cond everytime in your room. Turn on the fan and just get naked =p

Also, don go killing animals. Dont go and support the killing of the whales and dolphins. Dont go eating every creature on earth. Some things are created to be eaten....some just here on earth to roam. Like us, human beings.

Some people think...."its no use for me to do it alone when 25 million other people in Malaysia not doing it". Do not care about other people. Its not about other people. Its about your own principle. Try to educate others. Some say westerners brings bad influence. But this influence from the west, is great.

Till next time......xoxo

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Psychedelic moment

Hyena!!

Warrghhhh......mata saya berpinar-pinar. Tadi saya tengah upload gamba dalam pc. Pastu saya edit-edit sket gamba tu. Kononnye macam nak buat scrapbook la kunun (yer, saya tengah mengumpul gambar-gambar saya untuk dibuat scrapbook =D ihik...). And my eyes see so many colours....im becoming psychedelic. Saya berhalusinasi di mana saya nampak bintil-bintil warna yang mencurigakan dalam keadaan menjolok mata dan tak sepatutnya. Mata saya macam nampak ada bintik-bintik warna kecil yang berterbangan dan menari-nari zapin di depan mata. Kurang hajar betul!

So i think, i will stop editing and wrote some crap here before the bintik-bintik warna starts talking to me.

I have gained weight. Hehehhee....saya dah lama menunggu saat-saat di mana badan saya sampai 51 kg. Sekarang, 51 kg, 165 cm. Ok aa tu. Dulu 48 je. Ramai orang dengan ringan mulut kata saya keding.....hahaha. Nak cari seluar jeans susah betul. Banyak seluar jeans saya akan meninggalkan ruang yang sungguh banyak di punggung. Macam kena letak padding gitu....ahahks. Kedai-kedai banyak jual bra yang ada padding....rasanya sudah sampai masanya pengeluar-pengeluar jeans meletakkan padding pada seluar jeans mereka. Dengar tak?!

Tapi...!

Haa.....tapi, itu adalah berkara dulu. Sekarang saya sudah naik berat dan ruang-ruang kosong tersebut sudah terisi (hati juga telah terisi =D). I have decided, my weight will stop here. I have to be strict or else, i will be ballooned. If i am ballooned, i would like to be filled with hellium, so that i can float in the sky and fly to the southern part of France =D....(out of topic alert!)

Macam mana saya naik berat? Makan la, cemana lagi. Saya ni, mempunyai badan yang membakar kalori dengan sakan. Saya buat apa-apa jer pun, badan saya akan membakar makanan dengan sakan...like hays on fire. Oleh sebab itu, badan saya memang sentiasa warm....cos im on fire baybee! Jadi, apa saya buat? Saya makan, dan saya serta merta bertukar menjadi couch potato. Saya tidak banyak bergerak untuk menjimatkan kalori dari terbakar.....huhuuh. Bayangkan sebiji kentang yang tidak bergerak di atas sofa.

Metabolisma yang tinggi adalah agak heaven. Saya mampu makan apa sahaja, tapi berat tak gerak-gerak. Tapi bahaya woo....kurus tak semestinya sihat ok. Orang yang metabolisma tinggi, kadang-kadang tak perasan apa yang diorg makan. Dah tu...melantak sume benda pun badan tak naik, memang tolak batu dengan kayu jer la kan (dan beberapa bende lain yg tidak edible). Nampak tak, bahayanye metabolisma tinggi ni? Saya ni pulak dikurniakan Tuhan mampu memakan pelbagai jenis makanan dr Italian, Indian, Japanese, Melayu, Indonesian, Westerns. Memang kena hati-hati makan.

Im not 19, im 26 now....nearing 27. Im getting married soon (have to remind myself over and over...ahahks! but not only reminding myself...i have to remind other people also im almost 27 and getting married =D). I think, one thing that people overlook is their health and what they eat. Its important to control what you eat, and then exercise. Its damn important. Im looking at this matter closely now. Saya memang kurangkan makan fast food dan makanan yang over-over lemak dan manis ni. Saya tak makan ikot suke hati dah, dan saya akan exercise seperti mengangkat dan mengusung treadmill, menghantuk-hantuk kepala dengan raket tennis, berenang anjing, dan badminton.

Time to take charge and be responsible on your ownself. And then i will take charge on Din's food plak....ngeh ngeh ngeh (gelak mishcievous....he'd be nervous =D)

till next time.....x0x0

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Furniture Shopping

Hyena all.......hope ya'll in the pink of halth........i mean health.

Its 2 months through my engagement. So far its fine. Its breezy and great. I was thinking, i've known him for so long, and he knows me for so long...so it must be easy for us to get along.

The problem is, when u are engaged, a new side of yourself and ur other half is revealed. Its funny...when u thought u know that person inside out, something new about that person came up.

Lemme tell you exactly what i mean. This is just my experience.

These few months, we're trying to furnish the apartment where we will live together. I have a picture of what i want in my head, and he has his own picture in his head too. The mistake is, we didnt discuss 'our pictures' at all....haha. I simply forgot to discuss about it. I already set the things that i want, and where to put it and i also want certain place in the house to be empty (nothing to be placed there). I want something that is classy and at the same time look modern with some characters in it (wardrobe/cabinets....etc).

So we went on a trip to Ikea to find our second wardrobe (one wardrobe is not enough) and a rak for my many books and his books and a chest drawer for storage and some storage for the kitchen and maybe a cute low cabinet to put the phone and a nice chair...bla bla bla....huhuuh. And then, so it happen.... Mind-Clashing. He wants other things....i want other things. i do not agree certain things that he wants, and where he wants to put it....and he said what i want is not suitable and not necessary!

Sounds simple....but at times, u can feel the frustration and annoyed when you dont find any agreement for certain things. This is what i mean when i say something new....because we never go shopping for furniture before. This is the first time. And i never knew he want that thing and dont want this thing and he wanna put that thing over there....bla bla bla. And each of us cant imagine what the other person is saying about where to put it all....its stressful. Not to mention we have a budget to stick to.

Its only an apartment!....what if we want to furnish a bigger house? God knows!

But this is not a big problem actually. Its actually interesting to find a new side of the other person. Like, i never know he likes dark colored furniture....like, black! But i can find a way to make it nice and not make the whole house look gloomy with black furniture....like, green carpet! Ha.....i want a green carpet! =D

We'll try to find a way to get what we want for the house. Or what we call....compromise. We have been compromising with each other perangai....we can compromise this one too, right babe? =)

Till next time......x0x0

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Ella The Cat

Assalamualaikum.......and hyena eberibodi!

Ada la, hari Ahad lepas-lepas...saya pergi Midvalley Megamall. Ada cat exhibition. Saya sebagai seorang yang suke kucing dan binatang, pergi la dengan Din. Pastu kan, tak pasal-pasal Din pergi register Ella untuk the next cat exhibition. Saya pikir, bior betul incik Din ni...konfiden betul pi register Ella-the-saiko-cat tu. Bende pertama saya pikir ialah, 'can Ella behave properly at the pertandingan'. Memang Ella tu saiko sket ok! Masa dia baik dan manja tu, memang baik la. Kalo datang hangin dan saiko dia tu, dia akan bertukar kepada resaksa kecil bermata besar, yang berlari seperti pelesit...yang tidak mendengar cakap dan suke mengasah gigi sendiri (grinding her teeth). Kadang kala dia akan mengunyah bulu karpet yang tercabut, dan menelannye dan kami akan kelam kabut mengejar Ella untuk mengorek kembali bulu karpet itu (takot la tercekik ke, tersimpul dalam perut ke), tapi dia akan berlari seperti pelesit entah ke mana.


(She wants to type something)

Anyway, back to the cat exhibition thingy. So, dah register tu, means some work for me. Saya bawak dia pergi cucuk vaksin dan makan ubat. Ubat kutu pun letak lebih dose. Risau jugak kot-kot kang kutu hilang, sekali dengan bulu-bulu dia plak jadi togel cam sphinx cat. Mampos! Tapi nampak sume ok skang. Sehari sebelum pertandingan, kasi mandi, sikat-sikat lebih kurang. Thats it.

Last Sunday 5/7 is her pertandingan. Lepas register, the vets checked her kutu, her tail, her paws, her teeth, her ears and face and she passed the first screening. Lepas tu they announced, 'Para tuan kucen, sile kuor sbb para juri nak bwat judging dah skang'. I dont have high hope on her. Sebab memang ada kucen lain lagi hebat. Bulu lagi lebat sampai tak nampak rupe kucen...you'll be like, is that a cat, or a walking cotton ball!...well, its a cat. Or, is that a cat or a baby tiger!....well, its a cat. I think Ella is cute and all (all cat is cute)...but i dont put any hope or pressure on Ella.

Tapi kan, bile masuk balik tu kan, we got so surprised when we found out Ella got number 2!....hahahha. Waddaya know! There is a ribbon on her cage and she got a little trophy in her cage! So cute! Ella dapat nombor 2 untuk category Female Domestic Longhair over 1 year old.

Memang agak terkejut la kan. Sebab saya takde la jaga dia sakan sangat. I have my own life....hahaha. I dont want to be like the crazy lady at the end of the street with 40 cats. Jaga dia cam biasa je. Bagi dia punya ubat yang memang dalam jadual. Sikat bulu dia pun jarang-jarang....eheh. Padahal dengan bulu dia yang banyak tu, it is recommended to comb her hair every day. But i guess she's happy and fine and that shows in her apperance and health which makes her the number 2.



Well, i guess she tried her best to behave. Because it is a very tensed environment for cats. The noise is horrible. Dengan manusia sekeliling yang terjerit-jerit, dengan bunyi bende-bende jatuh la, bunyi speaker yang meletup2...ntah macam2 lagi. Kesian gak dengan dia. Dah la tak boleh tidur (kucing suke tidur siang) dengan bunyi bising-bising segala, dengan perangai manusia yang melebih kucing yang masuk pertandingan tu. Nak je aku sumbat orang-orang yang kecoh tu dlm sangkar. Pulak tu lagi kucing sume tak boleh makan/minum the whole time. Sebab dia orang tak mahu kucing berkumuh (bukan berkumur) dalam sangkar. I know Ella was stressed and tired and hungry......and in a freakin bad mood.

One time, she even hissed at me! At me!....ampeh punye budak ni (nak je jentik telinga dia, tapi takot orang nampak), Kalo anak aku memang dah kena piat telinga. Nasib baik kucing. (yer, saya memang akan menjadi seorang ibu yang garang, insyaAllah). Rasa bersalah jugak bile kite pergi makan, but the cats stay hungry, thirsty and tired in the cages. And the people who came to see the exhibition can be so cruel. They will poke-poke the cat and tarik2 bulu (Meh aku poke mata kau, nak? Tarik and cabut sume bulu kaki kau ke. Mau?) So we stay close to the cage. So that Ella can see us nearby. Well, alas....the little girl won number 2 and we got a big supply of cat food.

Its funny, that we want the cat to enter the competition, but it only leave the cats feeling miserable. Doesnt matter, we got the cats food....which is worth hundreds of ringgit. Its an interesting experience for us too. Congrats Ella.....ehhehe.

Till my next post....x0x0

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Stupid Font

Hyena!

Whoever came to my blog to read my last post must be surprise to see all symbols on my page.
My blog is fine.....no virus or anything shit. Just, i tried posting it with the font Webdings for my last post. And of course came out all the symbols. Stupid font.....


Ok....i feel so silly for blaming the font.
Maybe Im the silly one for using Webdings. My post is change to a readable font now.... =D

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Inggerish

Hello and Hye ena

So, weekend is here huh? Yaaawwnn.......ok.....doesnt matter, cos its a working weekend for me. Sleepy slow weekend. Its my cycle, to work in alternate weekends. Im used to this. Great thing is, there is no Monday blues for me next week....only Monday wohooss!...hahaha. And some more, i will only work on Weds and Thurs. How cool is that?

When we're in working environment, we always communicate in English, right? The emails in English, communicating between colleagues mostly in English, communicating with bosses would be in English. In fact, this all starts in Uni time. Communicating with lecturers was done mostly in English. Answering exam would be in English. Essays, assignments...all in English. The texbooks all in English. I tried reading a malay book on programming, and hell no i dont understand. I also found malay Physics book when i studied Advance Physics in Uni.....nope, its really strange that i cant understand my own language. Its all because they use malay terms....which really sounds unfamiliar.

Programming = Pengaturcaraan.......get it?

So...is it weird that i feel i cant communicate and convey my ideas in plain Bahasa Melayu well? The other day, i was at office, lepak by the balcony. Me and my friends we were talking about Birkinstock shoes and I said the shoes are comfortable. And suddenly Sukh ask:

'Genggaman dia ok tak?'

And i look at him weird.

'Genggaman?'

'The grip of the shoes. Tapak dia ok ke?.....what do u call 'grip' in malay? Genggaman right?'

'Oo0o0o....grip of the shoes! yeah man, the grip is fine.'

Like example of conversation above, what would u call 'grip' in malay? It is 'genggaman' right? It is suppose to be a usual word right? But why does genggaman sounds funky there? Is there any other unfunky word to describe the grip of a tapak kasut? Or do u think is sounds fine?

Isnt it funny when we find the word in Malay is too bombastic. Padahal memang selalu cakap BM (tapi bahasa pasar). Like Sukh said, 'after several years using English, speaking simple malay also can sound bombastic.' I think it happens like this cos BM can be so pasar. English is a bit more steady. It does not have to much sleaziness in the language.

What Sukh said made me laugh, cos its absolutely true. We have been using English as our (almost) primary language for some years already, which I, sometimes cant find a proper word in Malay. I sometimes feel English language has more accurate word than Malay. Im not doing a Sharifah Amani stunt here (remember Sharifah Amani once said, speaking in malay makes her sound stupid...and then everybody slammed her the very next morning in the papers? even the menteri kesenian makes his remarks on what she said). No, im not pulling 'a Sharifah Amani' here.

There is a lot of beauty in BM. But i just think BM can be too pasar, that when u tried using a proper word in Malay, it sounds bombastic. Of course I can still speak malay. I can speak proper malay but i dunno why, i felt like it sounds a bit......funky. Because like i say, sometimes malay words dont come out right. Just like the word 'genggaman' up there.

Take care all........xOxO

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Me, a fiancee

Hye yena!

Currenly im down with fever. Malam ni keje plak tu kan. MC dah amik semalam, tapi lom sembuh2 lagik! Its viral fever cos its getting at my body rreeeeaaally slowly. I had it before and i know how bad it is. I had fever sometimes but not this bad, and when its bad, i know its viral. Lambat sembuh and also very la the hotness...huhuuh. Last time i got viral fever, was last year. Horrible and every nite my temperature would be soaring like an eagle in the sky. 39-40 C and my body would be very weak.

Nasib baik tak rosak otak dan jadi retard kan....eh wait, now that got me thinking...hhm mm =p.

Viral fever, got a class on its own. It is on its own....no flu, no coughing included. Its in its own package - viral fever. Try not to get caught of viral fever, ok.

Anyway.....

Last 30/05/09, me and Din has decided to tie a 'loose knot'.....we were engaged. Well, me and Din has a very long history. I've known him 7 years ago. And during that 7 years, there is good time and there is turbulent time (horrible lowest time in my life). And at certain time, i think i can never ever love him back. Tapi ini la kite kata takdir tuhan. Dia bukak hati kite, and we accept it and it happened to be the greatest thing.

Thank you everybody who manage to came. Farrah, Khom, Marini, Piza, Ros, Suraya, Farah, Ila and Manchett dan hubby mereka. Oh dan Ariz Zafir yang masih dlm perut Ila time tu...haha. Esok lusa tu terus Ila terberanak...hehe.

Awaiting my other friends' turn.... =)

Take care.....x0x0

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