Me and Him

Hyenass...

Wow.....tempoh masa saya bergelar bujang sudah hampir tamat. Huahuahua....cam tak percaya. Rasa macam mimpi-mimpi gitu.

So looking back during my engagement time. Orang kata, masa bertunang ni, masa kritikal. Masa-masa ni la banyak cabaran dan dugaan untuk menguji. Saya banyak tanya orang pasal ni. Saya tanya kawan-kawan rapat, betul ke tiba-tiba hubungan jadi pelik dan turbulent. Ramai yang cakap betul. Banyak benda boleh jadi dan berubah. Macam, selalu dia suke kaler biru, tiba-tiba suka kaler pink plak kan. Jadi saya pun bersedia je la.

But im actually excited to go through the time. Im simply ready to see what is going to happen and whats going to change during the engagement. But you know what?...we just swift through the engagement time...swiftly! Alhamdulillah, tak ada masalah. Semuanya ok....in fact, aku lagi mengada-ngada, manja nak mampus dengan dia ada la...hahahah. I think mainly just be normal as before, InsyaAllah, semua ok-ok je. Tak payah tiba-tiba kena membesarkan perkara yang selama ni, tak besar pun.

There is a short period of time before the engagement, where we fight a lot. A short period of darkness. Gaduh sampai nak terbalik dunia. Tapi nasib baik kejap je. We got back on track. In fact, its even better than before. Jadi mungkin Tuhan kata..."cukup-cukup la. kasi diorg lepak plak nak kawin ni".

I've always feel that i will end up with this guy. You know, sometimes you have that feelings....that intuition 'this is the person im gonna end up with'. There is no maths to it...you cant count it, you cant measure it, you cant ask why....you simply have that feelings.

Walaupun saya dah ada feelings macam tu, pada masa yang sama saya selalu fikir, boleh ke saya hidup dengan dia. Sebab we are 2 very different people. Its like he's from the other end of the world and has been living with his tribe all his life. And me, im from the other side of the world living with my own tribe.....and we have never met. The thing is, we're so different!

He's a person who lives by rules. He follows rules. He's the proper one. He thinks about people around him, a lot. He is a calm person and acts carefully. Maybe cos he has a lot of responsibility....career-wise and family-wise. He is a very secretive and private person. He keeps personal things very close to himself. He has procedures and has plans for everything....heck he even has a backup plan for most things. I think he secretly has a backup plan for a backup plan. I mean, its like we're living in a space shuttle circling the orbit in space. What if we hit a rock? What if we run out of oxygen? What if we found a flying cow? He follows what suppose to be done. He controls things....and people too, godamnit. And oh, he's a ManU.

And me.....generally i have no rules....hahaha. I am not proper. I become bored very easily and that makes me do things that is a bit abnormal, regardless what people think. Im full of emotions, not calm. I can get pumped up and excited easily. I dont have plans. I love spontaneity and act spontaneously. I do silly things for my own fun and amusement and i prank people (him...ahaks). Im lurus bendul also. In terms of privacy, i tend to blurt things out and i dont play behind the bush. I know what i like to do, regardless if its not hip or what people say...or how freaky or geeky it is. And what if anything happen? Redah je! And im a Chelsea.

But god knows, how we can click. I think thats what we call compatibility (and of course, jodoh). We complete each other. You cant really live with a person who is exactly like yourself, because its hard to see things in different perspective. You can be lost in track as its maybe hard to see if something is going wrong. You imagine, a slacker living with a slacker. Everything just....slack!

There are certain things that i have to serious, and he always remind me of that. And i always makes fun of his uptightness and try to loosen him a bit. Opposite simply loves and attracts.

Im gonna be a bit busy these few weeks. Till next (distant)time people....