Aynur Warded

Anak masuk spital cemana agaknye? Anak aku warded baru ni. That was the most selfless time of my life. I didnt sleep. I only fall asleep, only to wake up 10 minutes after that checking on my baby's drip and temperature....Aynur's drip...(yes i still call Aynur my baby. when she's 30, she would still be my baby. she used to me my baby once....so thats not too much right?...hehe).


Ape sulaa jadi?


Baru ni, dekat 5 hari, anak aku bangun tido malam, nangis and muntah. Aku mula-mula ingat anak aku ngigau. Dia nangis, then tekak kering dia muntah. Aku siap marah dia dok muntah2. Tapi dah start ada pattern plak. For few nights camtu. Tapi yang peliknye muntah waktu malam sahaja. Aku agak stumped aa nak diagnose condition dia, lalu pergi la klinik. Doc kasi ubat indigestion. Tapi hati aku blom puas, cam ada something else. Sebab aynur never has problem cam indigestion gitu. Malam tu dia muntah lagi. Pastu, esok siang tu dia muntah plak lagi. Ok, alarm is ringing. Hari khamis gi klinik amik reference letter, petang tu jugak jumpe paeditrician Aynur. Further checkup tengok-tengok dia ada infection saluran pernafasan. Saluran pernafasan dia ada putih-putih. Aduh....hati rasa down. Doctor Aynur suruh masuk ward malam tu jugak dan start treatment malam tu gak.


Doctor dia kata dia ada infection saluran pernafasan with tendency to bronchitis. Tapi blom kena bronchitis. Dia ada sebut pelik sket, tapi dalam bahasa senangnya gitu la sakit Aynur. Dada dia ada bunyi mucus. Kena nebulizer. Tapi her condition is still early. Early infection. If later then that, she would have been diagnose with bronchitis...if the condition becomes worse, it would progress to be pneumonia (radang peparu). Kasi ubat awal, bleh sembuh cepat and nicely kata doctor Aynur. So balik rumah, pack barang dan ready untuk berkampung di DEMC. Aku tak sempat nak khabor kat sesape pun pasal ni.


Paling sedih masa dia kena cucuk untuk drip. Dia nangis 30 minit tak henti. Diorg cucuk dia semua dalam bilik treatment, tapi aku bleh dgr suara dia nangis. Argh...meruntun perasaan. Memang sedih. Aku ni first time anak masuk spital. Dia selalu tersenyum aktif ceria, tiba-tiba kena cucuk tangan dengan drip segala. First time kena nebulizer, muka monyok, mata bengkak nangis, phobia tgk nurse...breaks my heart. I almost blame myself for this. But which part is my fault? Then i think blaming myself is stupid.

Malam2 tido kena drip. Aku mmg tak tido malam aa nak jaga drip dia. Tengok demam naik ke ape. Tu aku kata, my most selfless time. There's no myself....there's only Aynur. Third night tu je tido lebih sket sebab condition dia makin baik dah. Nasib baik reaction dia to medicine agak cepat. Masuk malam khamis, tghari ahad dah bleh blah. Tapi eventho dah kuar tu kena continue meds dia. Antibiotic dia agak sial...like meds from hell (yer, aku mmg rasa semua ubat2 aynur sebelum bagi dia). Dengan pekat dia...dengan granules dia halus-halus...mmg lekat kat tekak. Pastu PAHIT lagi. Demmit! Tapi kena paksa. Doc dia kata, dose kena cukup. Tak cukup kalu, kuman tak mati, infection berterusan, demam naik, batuk teruk...warded balik. So aku dengan Din kena strict. You gotta be cruel to make sure she gets well. Memang aku cekak muka dan mulut dia. Dia muntah aku bagi lagi ganti muntah tu. Sorry nunor....mama tau rasa dia tak sedap, you hate it. I hate it too. Tapi mama dengan abah kena paksa gak.


So now this is the second day she's out of the hospital. Nampak like getting better. One thing is, she's happier at home. Kat spital, she was so unhappy. She hates to be handled by strangers. So kat rumah ada orang dia kenal, ada barang mainan familiar dia. Happiness is so important to get better. She's back to her cheeky ways and she gain her appetite back. Syukur Alhamdulillah.


Aku banyak la bersabar dan tabah menghadapi sume tu. Walaupun dia tgk aku ni cam orang jahat sebab dok kepit dia kiri kanan bile nurse bawak nebulizer, kena la kitorang cekal kan. Tapi aku pun tak paham apsal sedut nebulizer kena nangis. Tapi bagus la kan....dia akan sedut gas tu makin dalam bile nangis. Aku selalu teringat nasib budak-budak lain yg lebih teruk. Ibu bapa lain yang anak dia sakit lagi kronik. Syukur ini hanye dugaan kecil sahaja, 3 days at the hospital and the cheeky girl is back. This will make us stronger. I always carry this saying in myself...what doesnt kill you make you stronger. what doesnt kill you makes you a fighter (familiar? lagu kelly clarkson tu. tp that saying has been in me for a long time already).


This goes to my child as well. Im gonna teac her that. She will be stronger. Sometimes you gotta face some ordeal to be stronger.