Things i gave up.

Assalamualaikum.

Lama dah tak update. 4 months gitu. I simply forgot. I didnt even read my friends blog....aku lupe dowh. Lupe pasal blog. Anyway i think i dont have to update sakan la apa jadi 4 bulan ni. Im still doing the same thing....being a working mother and wife, running the house dan menjadi menteri hal ehwal dalam negeri dan memberi kelulusan untuk perbelanjaan kecik negara....juga menjadi approval kepada perbelanjaan negara melebihi 500 ringgit....hahaha. Anyway, Aynur is 2 year and 6 months, Ayman is 7 months.

Sometimes im thankful, that i have friends on the same boat. I mean a woman, just like me. A smile will spread across my face hearing their stories which are similar to mine. Anyway, at this stage of life, many things you aprreciate and many things you will forget and forgo.

These are the things that i gave up;

Night Entertainment - when you were young, you love to go out and hoo-haa. lepaking and drinking in bistro at night....you thought, this is the life! But then when you are at this stage of life like mine, you feel like its too trivial, not entertaining at all. Not to mention tiring and noisy. I havent even watch midnight movies for so long. You have something larger than life at home, 2 kids clinging to you. The older one is asking you to read a book while the other one is listening while being breastfed.

Branded Items - im not interested thank god. Not interested in branded items. The bag im using now is Longchamp Le Pliage, cost me RM400. You think thats expensive? Before that i use LeSportSac which cost me around RM380 for god knows how long. I used to have TOD's, for hantaran kawin, but the colour changes. Macam rosak...sayang gile. I also have one small Kipling which i just put my wallet and handphone for quick errands. Then my specs, by Ted Baker. And....do you call PopLook as branded?....hahah. I rest my case. The money, i usually spend for my interest which are books (which i strive to find times for it), spend on my kids, good magazines, food and groceries, or simpan to go somewhere for a getaway. Shopping sekali skala je, bila ada gerhana bulan gitu.

Eating Out most of the Time - I make my effort to cook most of the time. The reason? This has gone beyond money reason. I will make effort to cook because i want my family to eat good food with quality ingredients. I try to buy premium things to cook. From the oil, down to the salt, the main ingredients and so on. Most of the veges are organic, cooked only with olive oil. When i eat out, i will be a bit paranoid...aku akan fikir, "dia masak ni pakai minyak ape yer? minyak2 dalam peket tu ke. byk saturated fat tu...ish" or "sup ni ada msg tak. kalau ada tu, byk tak...abis la botak sume org" or "sayur ni organic tak ehh? saur organic mahal, takkan organic punya. sume makan pesticide la malam ni". And aynur pun will give more interest in food if i cook and eaten at home in her highchair... =). Take out food, eating out......tak berapa makan sangat. Which makes me a tiny wee proud of myself   =)

Wanting to spend time for myself - I know people say you gotta have time for yourself. Thing is, i dont have time. Not that i dont need time for myself, i have no free time to spend for myself. Pusing2 kain baju kena basuh. Pastu yang tgh bersidai kat luar tu kena angkat. Dah angkat kena lipat. Yg dlm washing machine td kena sidai plak....and the cycle goes on. Tu baru cerita pasal kain. Lom cerita pasal pinggan mangkuk. Periuk belanga. Aku pernah tanak basuh dishes for one night. Instead aku terus lepak dan pastu tido. Esoknya nak membasuh malasnye ya rabbi. Pastu sekali tu jer la aku tinggal dishes. Anak-anak aku besar, sorang kena basuh at least 3 pinggan atau gelas. Compulsory, im gonna count how much each one had wash. Tu belom masuk hal anak-anak. Sekarang aku cuma harapkan masa-masa sipi2 yg aku dapat rest sambil minum milo with a book. But we always hope....i always hope for the better. Im gonna teach my kids....to learn to help with house chores....tanpa disuruh. Even my boy, especially my boy. Because they say....a man who treat a lady (the wife) like a queen, came from a queen =)

Pakai tudung stylo mylo - out of question. Setelah 3 tahun kawin, transition kepada pemakaian tudung masih aku belum dapat kuasai. Serious. Aku takde terer pakai2 tudung ni. Ni skang dah ada anak, pakai tudung lilit pin sana, pin sini....senget benget la tudung aku kena tarik dengan Encik Ayman Khaliq. Pastu kang dia tercucuk pin segala...habis. So tudung sarung ade awning tu jer la aku don bantai. Tu pun senget2 kena tarik dengan Ayman. Baju stylo-mylo ok lagi, tudung stylo-mylo; out. But my style is never stylo-mylo. I categorize my style as smart-sloppy  =)

Ada a few bende yang aku tgh planning utk redha give up....tp bile aku pk balik, cannot! Such as shopping sekali sekala, reading, photography, high heels...and many more.

Have a good days ahead and the many days to come.