Baby Story

Salam....


Sudah. Aku sudah selamat beranak pada 26 July 2012/6 Ramadhan 4.36pm, syukur Alhamdulillah. Baby aku boy, seberat 3.7kg, secara normal, dengan sedikit paksaan.


Baby second aku ni mmg berat. Bg aku yg berangka kecik ni, mmg aku tak larat sgt nak carry badan kali ni. Tapi aku tetap try to stay active. Masa akhir2 pregnancy, aku tak boleh tido baring. Kalau aku tido baring, alamatnya tak bangun la aku. Kalau aku bangun dengan bantuan laki aku pun, dia akan ada rasa sakit teramat di pelvics aku. Aku sampai ngucap bagai menahan sakit masa nak bangun tu. Sampai ada sekali tu ada bunyi 'kletak' kat tulang pinggul aku. Then aku rasa ada shooting pain kat pelvics aku. Sumpah aku ingat aku dislocate tulang pinggul. Nasib baik setelah mencuba bangun perlahan2....aku berjaya juge....kekeke. Disebabkan kesakitan masa nak bangun tu, aku tido separuh duduk di masa few weeks before delivery tu. Baru la senang sikit nak bangun.


Aku budget anak aku kalau besar pun 3.4kg, 3.5kg paling berat. Tengok2 hamik ko! Patut la nak runtuh kangkang aku. And sebab dah berat sgt, aku dok mengharap la supaya baby kuar awal. He was so heavy, i thought he's gonna fall anytime. Tp idaknyee...badan aku pun dok hold baby cam ape. Aku actually tak dilate langsung dispite all the effort. I walked, i move, even my husband 'helped' me...nothing. No dilation. Last2 pergi sahaja menyerah diri semasa checkup. Doc check, no dilation. Tp contraction ada. So selamba dia pecahkan amniotic sac.....terus terbukak 3cm.


That was a little after 9am, 26th July 2012, 6 Ramadhan. So there we wait in the labour room. Contraction mula terasa, tp boleh tahan. Pastu aku decide, amik jer la terus epidural alang-alang plan nak amik tu. So aku pun amik awal la. Lain dengan masa Aynur, aku amik masa dah 6cm. Kali ni amik awal. Ok....pastu tunggu lagi. Nurse datang bersilih ganti check aku. Tang ni la boring sket jd pempuan ni....kena 'seluk' is no fun.


Pastu tiba 6 cm...aku rasa pelik. Tiba-tiba ada rasa contraction. Td tak rasa. Ni rasa....ok la...boleh tahan. Eehhhh....tp kaaaann....dalam masa 10 minit lepas tu, aku bleh rasa kesakitan tu pick-up plak. Ehh eehhh....dalam masa few minutes lepas tu plak, i can actually FEEL my contraction. Doc actually mmg bagi kite rasa dalam 5%-10% of contraction pain even with epidural. Nak bg kite rasa bile nak push tu. Tapi ni at least dah 85% aku boleh rasa. Aku cakap kat nurse and diorg tambah dose. Contraction datang lagi. Shit....sakit lg. Ahh sudah...why is it not workiiinggg?!! Aku dah baca sume jampi serapah yg mak aku ajar. Bacaan Nabi Yunus dlm perut ikan yu tu. Aku dok concentrate baca ngulang2 ayat tu. Sambil tu layan etonox....best!


Dang, that gas really makes me high! Aku mmg ingat nak mintak setong-dua from doc...tp mmg tak dapt la kan. Etonox (or is it entonox) mmg bwat aku high sikit....bwat mata aku berat sikit. Sampai aku nampak jam depan aku ada 5-6 bijik. Aku rasa aku nampak muka Pakdin and Dr Fairuz ada 5,6 depan aku. And i think i can see stars....or at least something blinking and twinkling. Dunno how to describe. Walaupun pakai gas tu, rasa sakit tetap ada. Tp once you concentrate on something like membaca ayat-ayat yg aku sebut td tu, ditambah dengan etonox, somehow boleh relieve sikit sbb you're concentrating on something else. Tp masa tu ko mmg tak ingat apa dah. Kalo ada org tanye apa nama aku pun, aku tak ingat sangat kot. Sbb byk sgt bende kena concentrate.


And suddenly Dr Fairuz masuk dengan senyuman besar.

"Ok Farin...ready?"

I didnt answer. Im never ready for this.

Aku tgk dia pakai baju plastik tu...nurse sume tolong dia pakai baju tu. Pastu tray tu sume dah ready dgn tah pape....aku pun tak perasan bile diorg readykan tray tu. Tup2 dah ada depan aku. diorg turunkan bahagian depan katil aku so Dr Fairuz can have easy access to help me. And then she said, "Ok dah ni. Ok farin, buang gas tu. Look at me,".


WHAT! buang gas?!.....mampos aku. So aku reluctantly buang gas yg meng-high kan aku tu. And look at Dr Fairuz.


"Ok, Farin....tarik nafas, push."


Aku ikot la. And oh my god i cannot believe i can feel myself stretching and opening up down there. Howly cow! Ngeri aa....tp nak kena gak tolak anak kuar nih. So, argghh....redah jer. Aku tak pk byk lagi dah. Aku tarik nafas, push lagi.

"Farin, Farin look at me," kata Doc Fairuz.

I tried to find her face.

"Push with your head down. Your head down," kata dia.

Apparently i was pushing with my head up. So after a while tetiba doc kata baby senget sikit. And dalam sedar tak sedar tu aku dgr doc kata dia kena guna vacuum kecik untuk tarik baby. Argghh....pape la doctor....pasrah jer la aku. Bwat la apa patut.


And i think i remember i scream, "C'moonn babyyyy!!" and i gave one huge push....and doc tarik....and suddenly i can feel a gush of water coming out from me and out came the little baby and on to my tummy. He was a huge, blue baby. Lots of hair. They let Ayman lepak on my tummy for a bit. Then they took Ayman, clean him up, tagged him, Pakdin azankan dia. That time Dr Fairuz continue her job stitching back my perineum. Koyak lebih sikit dari dulu, but still not much. Then they bring Ayman back to me. Aku terus nyusukan dia. Latch on berjaya in the first hour! Uyeehhh!


And i think i saw Pakdin laughing at me while im pushing. Hish....ape ker he nyer plak tergelak aku tgh sakit nih. Aku pun confront dia lepas bersalin...whats so funny that time? Kata dia, Dr Fairuz dok suruh aku push with head down...and i keep pushing with my head up.


Ahaaa....so thats just it? Thats the funny part? Sabar jer la....aku mana dgr arahan-arahan gitu dah. Sayup-sayup je sume bende. I just need to get the baby out. Aku cume dgr arahan "push" sahaja.


And i did. Baby is now safely sleeping beside me while im writing this.

Anyway now after 1 week, things are getting better. Im better. All is fine. And i still cannot believe kami sudah berempat. Anyway i got to go. Baby is crying...