Aging

Ok, ok....i update my blog already....hahaha.
(jgn la marah sam.....refer kepada chat box di sebelah kiri)

A while ago, my husband just gave me a whole lot of money. Saya ingat sebab ape la kan...ingat suruh pi beli kasut Nine West yang saya dok teringin tu. Then he said, 'ni duit untuk rumah. you manage this money.'

Shaayytt....terus la aku jadi accountant/bendahari kan. Aku tak pernah ada degree in accountancy, how to manage money? Hahaha....alasan untuk lari dari tanggungjawab. This are some of the things that i have to learn and do. Manage money. Bukan seratus, dua ratus, tiga ratus, empat ratus, lima ratus. Lebih dari itu....huhuuh. But like i said...this are the things i have to learn and do. But anyway, being married force me to change.....its for the better. I feel like a coward and a loser if i dont take responsibility. And its a waste if i stay the same way (not improving).

Anyways....

Have you ever feel old? Haha....i know you will deny. But age will catch up with you, my fren. Even if you dont feel old, certain things will not be the same. When i was younger....during Uni time, i will sleep late almost everyday. Play game la, chatting la, browsing la, studying la, movies la, bowling la, late supper la, lepak-lepak la....all that and i was able stay wide awake. Nowadays, i cant even make it pass 11 pm. I will feel sleepy. Dulu dengar bang Subuh baru la nak tido (pastu missed kelas la kan). Tido dalam 4, 5 jam pun ok. Skang kena 8 jam, baru aku happy. Me, im feeling neutral. Im feeling my age....but i will always have the kid inside me. Im not feeling old, but like i said...age will catch up with you, and you will realize things are a bit different.

And mind you....age is NOT just a number. It is a number and everything else.

With aging comes responsibility, comes wrinkles, comes wisdom, comes 'kendur-kendur'....comes lesser energy, comes so many other things. Like what I have discussed with a friend some time ago, imagine if you're 40 yrs old, are you still gonna jump around in a disco? Is it still the same when you were 21 and jumping in disco? Of course its different isnt it? Kalo ko still pergi disco umur 40, ko memang buang tebiat, in denial nak mampos la kan. Or anybody think its normal?....hahahh.

The thing you can do is, having a fresh mind. Dont be to stressful about anything, live life light, fun and simple. Take care of your health, take care of others too. Be reasonably open-minded. Be in touch with your spiritual junk (ingat ugama plis). Have many friends, young and old. At this age, you should have kids as friends....as well as old people. Not only people your age. Knowledge and wisdom will make you young and fresh, not 'acting young' like a retard. So many other things to 'retain' your age and not be 'old' with time.

Lemme show you an example of a person who is living in denial and a person who is aging and living her life happy.

Madonna

















































Ellen DeGeneras












































Madonna is like 50 yrs old. You might know, Madonna strive very hard to maintain her physique and looks. She did a whole lot of yoga, pilates, cosmetic surgery and many other things we never heard of.....she wears inappropriate clothes at her age, which ironically, makes her look older. She worries too much of growing old....and now she becomes what she's afraid off. Maybe worse.

Ellen DeGeneras is also like 50 yrs old (and a lesbian). But she dress appropriately, she's nice (see her talk show), always happy and smiling.....and who looks better...you tell me.

I rest my case. Till my next post.....x0x0

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Post-Wedding

Hello....Salam and hyenas...ahahks.

Its now 3 weeks after my wedding. We're still feeling the post-wedding feeling. The posters are still in the house, the leftover cards are still there, the leftover chocolates are still there. Sometimes you can still see tiny shreds of bunga rampai on the floor by the wall. The dried flowers are not all gone yet. Its not really over yet. The inai on my nails is still red (ok, not red.....orange maybe. it was red 3 weeks ago tho). The wedding gives great memories to me. It was stressful preparing for it. Malay wedding is always extra-stressful. But now, all the stress i experienced has become sweet memories. All the kalut ribut makes me smile now. And also my friends around me who was excited as well...hehe. My office-mates, my school friends, my uni friends...it was great pleasure seeing your faces on those days.

Malam sebelum akad-nikah tu, kak ipar saya (orang utara, seGeng la dgn Din tu) - Kak Ija merangkap ketua department inai pada malam itu....dan adik saya si Fazie tu tolong letakkan inai kat tangan saya. Inai tu henna la kan. Inai tu dapat mana? Ada pokok inai rupanya mak saya tanam kat luar tu. Pelik plak....mak aku memang dah plan nak pakai ke, gi tanam pokok tu awal-awal? Anyway, saya pun amik la daun, tumbuk-tumbuk. Dan malam itu bila sampai masanya untuk dipakai;

Kak Ija: ain, awat pi tumbuk lagu ni?
Me: apsal? ain tumbuk cemana?
Kak Ija: mana bleh pakai lagu ni...
Me: awat? (dan-dan tiba2 bertukar cakap utara)
Kak Ija: ain kena tumbuk haluih-haluih. sampai dia jadi cam paste. baru bleh lekat kat tangan. kalu dia hancoq lagu ni mana bleh lekat kat tangan ni.
Me: (uh oh, akad esok....bile lagi aku nak pakai inai kalau tak malam ni) alamak, bih tu cemana?
Kak Ija: takpa, kita terai dulu hak ni...

So, there i was. Sitting there stiff. With my fingers and toes berlumuran daun inai yang tidak hancur lumat. After almost 3 hours, "Adeh, sakit belakang, nak baring sket". Right on that damn moment, daun2 inai jatuh berguguran dari jari. Me, being a person who has a very thin patience snapped and say "Thats it. I'm done with this inai. Dah la susah nak lekat. Pastu warna pun tak terang mana". But who to blame but me. Aku yang tumbuk tak hancur. Aku pun tak tau kena tumbuk sampai hancur, serious. At last, we resort to wearing inai from the tube.

Resulting in inai merah menyala like this. Dah dua lapis inai kan. memang merah menyala la. tapi cam over sket kan? Tapi aku suke siot.... hahahha, menyala merah....

Next day, that was Friday, 20/11, the akad-nikah day. It was schedule to be at around 5 pm, after Asar prayer. Uncles and Aunties from Kelantan and around came to be in the event. My sister has arrange fresh beautiful flowers around the house. We heat up aromatherapy in house. The house looks cozy with sweet smell of aromatherapy. My 'groomer' came early to do my make up. It was fun being dolled up and made up. I'll miss all this! As time pass by, my heart beats faster and faster. Tapi sebenarnye aku tak payah nervous. Sebab ini hari Din. Din la yang nervous....pengantin perempuan tunggu je kan...wahahaha. Aku pun berjaya menenangkan hati dan lepak menunggu bakal suami. Tapi risau jugak kot-kot tiba-tiba dia jadi gagap tak pasal-pasal kan. Atau gugup, hyperventilate ke, pastu pengsan kan. Atau berpeluh terlalu banyak sampai air peluh membanjiri muka sampai dia tak boleh bercakap. Atau kena buli dengan tok kadi kaw kaw sampai jadi stress mengamuk tak jadi kawin ke. Maybe i imagine too much....

Masa tu kawan lama saya dari sekolah sampai menemankan saya....Farah dan Khom (thanx man, I love you guys la).

Tiba masanya, pengantin lelaki sampai. Lebih kurang pukul 5 gitu. Perfect timing. He was wearing his white baju melayu dengan sampin songket dan songkok. Aku pakai baju kurung modern putih dengan bertudung litup....haha. Aku dengan kontrol machonya turun tangga pelan-pelan. Diiringi Farrah and Khom and Auntie saya. Padahal selalu aku lompat turun dua anak tangga sekali tu ko tau!....hahaha. Ngok ngek ngok ngek, pot pet pot pet....pastu tok kadi suruh dia istighfar, ucap shahadah, dan selawat. Dia jawab semua dengan tenang, sekali dengan nafas je. Abah saya sendiri yang mengahwinkan Din dan saya.....dan Din jawab lafaz akad sekali sahaja smooth, clean and clear.....cam ubat jerawat gitu.

Right that moment, I'm a wife. Din turn to me and give me a smile that i would never forget, ever. Dengan lafaz nyata itu, dan niat dari hati Din dan kebenaran wali dari Abah saya, secara rasminya saya dah jadik bini dia. That moment, reality hasnt hit me yet....lalalla. And that nite.....jeng jeng jeng hahaha.....he went back to his house and I sleep alone. Cos we gotta get ready for the kenduri pula the next day, Saturday. No rush man, we have our whole life together afterwards. The important event is done. Syukur Alhamdulillah, semua lancar. Timing cantik. Cuaca cantik. Tetamu gembira. Its already near perfect, just as we like it.

And that evening, we had a blast taking photos.

Saya berterima kasih sangat dekat keluarga yang banyak menolong (tolong dengan tenaga, dengan duit.....atau hanye dengan kehadiran masing-masing) dan juga rakan-rakan yang datang. Rakan-rakan lama, dan tak berapa lama dan yg baru pun ada. Rakan-rakan opis, rakan-rakan sekolah RZ, rakan-rakan Uni. You know who you are, susah aku nak sebut nama-nama ni....aku takut betul kot tertinggal nama. Dan rasanya mesti ramai yang datang, tapi tak jumpe aku yang mungkin agak busy hari tu. So, aku tatau la siapa korang, siapa suruh tak jumpe aku.....ekekkee. Thank you, too. Photos will up uploaded into facebook very soon.

Take care all.

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