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Korang bawak kete cemana? Aku bawak kete hati-hati la gak. Takde kelam kabut, menyusahkan orang. Especially ada anak dlm kete ni. Korang pun kena hati-hati tau!

Baru ni aku bawak kereta. Nunor ada dalam kereta, dalam carseat. Carseat tu kat seat depan, rear-facing. Aku nak strap dia atas carseat tak nak. Dia nak diri atas lutut dia, sambil tgk depan dalam seat dia. Aku nak strap dia kemain struggle. Konon habis kuat aa. Aku plak ada byk barang nak pegang sume. Aku pun letak dia dulu dalam carseat tu. Cadangnya nanti red-light kat mana-mana traffic light, aku ikat aa dia kan....

So aku pun bawak la kete. Bawak-bawak-bawak tu....aku nampak nun di depan....traffic light tengah kelip-kelip hijau....nak jadi kuning. Jalan tu agak busy. Mengingatkan traffic light ini adalah traffic light yang paling membuang masa dalam hidup aku, aku pun speed up sket. Aku tau memang sempat. Kalau tak sempat takde aku speed up. Sikit lagi nak lepas traffic light....tiba2 ada kete belah kiri aku nak pusing, nak pergi ke belah kanan. Mana boleh! Ko nak gi kanan ko kena dok lane kanan aa. Atau at least lane tengah. Jalan tu busy 3 lane kot...gile hape dari hujung kiri nak gi hujung kanan! Aku dah pucat, ngucap panjang. Aku dah la tengah speeding ni. Sempat tak break. Anak aku dah la tak strapped-on. Aku pun break la mencicit gaban. Aku tarik seluar anak aku, so that dia tak terus ke depan langgar cermin kete. Skang dua-dua kete dah berenti. Kete dia, kete aku...kete belakang byk lagi tunggu.

Memang anak haram jadah punya driver. Yang bawak kete tu pempuan. Kesabaran nak sampai had dah aku rasa. Kalau aku ada darah tinggi, mau aku kena serang strok dah. Sebab darah cam boiling sial. Aku rasa cam nak tenyeh muka dia atas tar. Itu aku punya initial feeling. Boiling gile ada beberapa sebab significant....

(1) Sebab aku bawak anak. Kalau sorang-sorang, marah-marah pun aku let go la. Ni kalau bawak anak, aku jadi cam mak kucing. Ko pernah berani nak gi kacau anak kucing baru lahir? kau nak kena gigit dengan mak kucing? Ha....macam tu la. Bile ada sesuatu yang macam jadi threat utk anak, aku mula la darah jadi boiling. Alah bukan mak kucing je....mak-mak lain pun sama. Sebab natural instinct dia nak protect anak dia dari harmful threats.

(2) Apa yang pempuan gile tu bwat is sooooo not necessary. I mean its a stupid thing. Selfish betul. Kalau kebodohan dia tu jadi kemalangan utk org lain cemana? kalau dah salah lane di atas jalan yang busy, you better find another way. Bukan bwat bende bodoh camtu.

(3) I didnt honk her. I should have. It should be a blast honking. But i didnt. Im not a honking-person.

Kadang-kadang, kita mungkin bawak kete berhati-hati. Tapi kite tatau org lain cemana. Bile dah kena, nak kire sapa betul sape salah pun tak guna dah. Kite kena jadi extra careful dengan diri kite....dan alert dengan pembawa-pembawa kereta seperti ini.

Semoga kitre dielakkan daripada bende-bende macam ni.

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The cat story

Aku bukak page ni awal-awal tadi. Tatau nak tulis ape.

I was thinking, did i really lost it? I mean lost my mojo, lost my ideas, lost my fun-ness? Well, i admit, some of my life is really occupied. Yer la, as life move on, you have responsibilities kan. Your life become occupied. Ada komitmen.

But whatever it is, you should fullfilled you life with meaningfull things. You should make yourself meaningful to others. You should fill your soul with real things. You should have lots of fun. This thinking brings me to an incident that happen some years ago. Some years ago yang selalu aku ingat.

I was around 23 years old. Or was it 24? Around that. That was my final semester in MMU. That semester I only took 1 subject, or was it 2. I have a lot of time. So I worked at a bakery shop near my house. On one of my working days....one time i went out to get drinks. On the way to buy my drinks, i saw a cat. A black cat. The cat looks healthy, strong. I think he's around 1 1/2 yrs old. You know what the cat was doing? He was chasing butterfly. Ah, that scene is so fresh in my mind. The cat was having so much fun. Chasing and jumping. The scene was very interesting, I stopped to look at him play. I called out to him. He stopped, looked at me....and continue play. Im a cat person. I appreciate animals. So when i see him play like that, it brings joy to me. After looking at him for a while, i remember i was suppose to get some drinks. So i went into 7-eleven.

After around 5 minutes in 7-eleven, i went out and automatically remembers the cat. I search for him. Takde. He was not there, where he played just now. Mana dia. Aku pusing kiri-kanan. takde. Ahh...mana dia. I dunno why, aku rasa tak sedap hati. Aku cari-cari....and suddenly i saw him. Hancut lulur hati aku. Sedih. Aku nangis terus kat situ. Depan kucing yang dah mati tu, depan org kat kaki lima kedai. Kucing tu kena langgar. Ahhh....cemana bleh kena langgar. he was so happy playing just now. This cant be!....

But he was so happy playing just now! Aku taleh terima hakikat time tu. I know its just a cat. well, maybe sebab, (1)-aku suke kucing (2)-he was so much alive before that (3)-he made my day, and suddenly he died?!

Oh well, life's like that. You dont know when is your due to go. From that moment on, i learn something. Live yourself to the fullest. Fullest doesnt mean go waste yourself, but do something meaningful to you and others. Go have fun. Do what you like. Be important to other people other than yourself. Leave marks on people. Like the cat. He left a permanent mark in my heart.

I hope there's cat heaven. I hope he go to cat heaven.

xoxo.

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