A little update....

Salam....'ola...

Oh, last post aku Februari dowww......skang dah bulan 8. Dah setengah tahun. Apekah!....orang berblog, dia nak berblog gak. Pastu takleh maintain.....salah siapa? Ape laa...!

Disebabkan aku lama tak post, aku update la pasal diriku ini yer. Nanti next next post aku bebel pasal lain plak. Bulan August kalu, kira aku dah berumur....jap...aku nak kira. Aku tak sure lak aku ni umur 28 ke, 29 thn ni.

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Oh, 23 August ni aku dah umur 29 thn la kira....hahaha....what a number. Anywayyy....

Oh, there's another special birthday this month! A special birthday, with a special number! Its Aynur Khalesya 1st birthday. Ini lagi satu....hahaha.....budak ni dah setahun. Aynur, or fondly called Nunor by family is 1 year old this 17/8. Masih fresh di ingatan...puasa tahun lepas cemana aku struggle jaga dia. She's a colicky baby. Kata orang, breastfed baby ni kurang colic. Mane ade derr....nangih sakan every night sampai pagi. Nasib baik masa pantang je gitu.

Nak bwat party kat dia pun kurang sesuai plak bulan-bulan puasa ni. Next year pun sama kot. Takpe, nanti 3 tahun mama bwat birthday bash gitu....hehehe. This funny, whimsical, baby. Let me tell you a bit about her.

-Her face has changed. Dulu 90% ikot bapak dia. Skang dah mix...becomes sweeter...hehe.

-Dia dah setahun, tapi gigi baru ada 4 batang. Tu pun half tumbuh baru. Her tooth only came out by 10+ month. Almost 11 month.

- She havent walk yet. But she can stand and meniti berjalan slow-slow sambil pegang kabinet. Problem is dia suka menjinjit....she's practising to walk in high heels, i'm telling you.

-She's long.....or tall i should say.

-Best thing is, she's already talking. Abah Nunor selalu cakap dulu, kalau boleh dia nak Aynur cepat bercakap. Doa parents ni memang makbul ko! Dia tak la boleh bercakap - 'mama, aynur sungguh lapar. bolehkah kirenye mama suapkan aynur makan?' - dia boleh cakap simple words. She can pronounce mama and abah by 8 months. She can pronounce tokma (sounds more like omma) by 9+ month. She can say simple2 word like nak, air, bird, cat, Ella (my cat), fish (but sounds more like sshh), and some others. She can mock people, ngajuk ape dia sempat tangkap. She can say her name. She can follow your words. Sometimes if i count with her, she will follow....if she wants and she's in the mood. Babies are like that....you cant force. They want to do, they will do. They dont want....ko bwat la cemana, terbalikkan dunia pun dia takkan bwat.

-She starts 'muaahh' by 10 months. Dia akan muah with some souvenir on your cheek (air liur dia). Tapi air liur baby smells sweet. Lemme tell you, bau mulut baby fresh. Especially kalau dia breastfeed. Actually baby susu formula pun bau sedap. Sedang diorang dalam period hisap susu tu, memang bau mulut dia fresh. Dah start solid 100% aku tak rasa bau mulut wangi sangat la kot....hehe.

-Dia suke kutip benda masuk mulut. Ada baby yang tak macam tu. Anak aku ni kronik sket aku rasa....haha. Aku rasa salah satu deria utama dia ialah lidah. Dia kena rasa texture sesuatu bende tu dengan lidah dia. Baru puas hati. Anak sedara aku tak suka pun masuk benda dalam mulut. Cousin aku yang kecik tu pun tak camtu. Baru ni dia jumpa biji kurma atas lantai. Dia masuk mulut. Bapak aku nampak dia cam kulum sesuatu. Tengok-tengok biji kurma....terus la aku kena marah. Marabahaya ko....kot tercekik kang. Nasib baik tak jadi pape.

-She just started brushing her teeth. Aku la yg brushkan....bukan dia berus sendiri. Aku rasa dia senang hati bagi aku brush sebab dia suke letak bende dalam mulut dia....so dia suka aa bende dalam mulut dia tu kan. Lidah dia sama sibuk. Sampai dgn lidah-lidah dia aku genyeh.

-Dia tak suka pakai baju. Dia even tak suka pakai pampers. Tapi aku rasa bende ni lebih kepada dia suka nyakat orang. Bertuah punya. Lepas mandi, lepas lap badan dia, aku pakaikan pampers. Lepas tu aku cari seluar dia jap....pusing balik kat dia, tengok-tengok pampers sudah terburai...dia dah dok lari merangkak terkekek-kekek. Kena pulak kejar dia....pakaikan balik pampers. Pastu aku sarung seluar ke kaki dia....belum sempat habis pakai seluar, dia dah bukak pampers balik. Woooohhhh.....boleh naik angin aku weeyyy. Aku dah la patient sangat rendah. Aku pernah slap peha dia sekali...pastu muka dia terkejut. Aduu...kesian. But she knows i love her and would go to the end of the world for her. Anyway, kekadang untuk mengelakkan diri aku dari naik darah dok ulang pakaikan pampers dia, aku pakai je diaper pants. Senang....hahahha....taleh bukak dah.

Ramadhan ni, first time la aku tak terawikh. Kalau idak dulu memang selalu gi. Dah nak jaga anak kan. Aku tanak la bawak anak gi surau. Dulu masa aku single mingle, aku selalu bengang dengan orang bawak budak kecik gi surau. Budak kecik tu nangis la, merangkak depan org semayang la, bising-bising la.....bih takkan aku nak bwat bende sama kan. Kekadang aku semayang depan Aynur je. Tapi bile dia dah 'kerabat' kaki aku....susah aa kan. Pernah aku berdiri 5 minit tunggu dia lari dari kerabat kaki aku. Ha....tak dapat la kan. Stop semayang kot....(stop semayang sesuka hati adalah tidak boleh).

Gi pasar Ramadhan pun jarang sangat dah. Dah dulu selalu sangat gi. Dia jadi tak heran kot...haha. Kalau teringain pape baru cari. This year is simpler than years before....although more tiring.

Kepada Ila, selamat berpantang. Dia baru lepas dapat hero few days ago....

Semoga puasa kite diberkati dan tidak hanya mendapat lapar dan dahaga....amiin

=)

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Kim Clijsters

Hello....
Howow u? =D....teehee...

The other day, I watched Australian Open. Aku tengok sikit je. Dulu sume Grand Slam aku tengok. Roland Garros, Wimbledon, Australian Open, US open....semua aku tengok. Tapi sekarang aku tengok sipi-sipi je. Tapi aku tau la peberet aku main. Aku suka Kim Clijsters. Lama dah aku minat dia. Since dia muda single trangtangtang lagi. Aku suka sebab dia punya main smooth je. Swing dia smooth and clean gitu. Badan dia pulak cam sangat ringan masa main (dulu la...skang masa main dia tak nampak ringan cam dulu dah). And she play things cool. Takde marah-marah, takde bunyi-bunyian yang annoying. Takda swing yang gaban laju ke ape. Semue relax and placing cantik.

Dia menang Australian Open pempuan. Aku gembira la kan. And amused too. She is married. Has a family. Has a baby (dah toddler kot anak dia). She's 27. She sharpen things up to get back in the scene, get back in the game. Awesome. Its hard work. Dia tinggalkan tennis bertahun-tahun, and now she won a Grand 'effing' Slam. It makes me more amused and being more of her fan. Dia boleh get back in shape, get back her stamina and strength.

She inspires me.

No this is not about losing weight, silly....haha. This is about chasing your dream. This is about doing what you want and being satisfied in life. And then succeed...over and over...like Kim. (Ceh panggey Kim, bajet kawan baik aa tuh...haha)

People might think that having a family, a cheeky little baby girl, a paycheck that makes things affordable (bkn kaya raya...affordable sahaja ye...hehe), a house, another house, a car and another car is great. What more could you want....right? Syukur.

Wrong. At least me (syukur tetap syukur). I feel like i still need to achieve certain other thing. 1 thing only. Satu bende je wey! Just one thing only. Aku dapat achieve tu, aku tak bising banyak dah. But the thing is, susah. Nanti ada la kata-kata cliche...fikir positive la, hendak seribu daya tak hendak seribu dalih la, di mana ada jalan di situ ada highway la....heh...susah. Cakap boleh la kan...

Bak kata aku...talk is cheap. Because everybody can talk, but not doing and feeling anything. Tapi takpe....we'll see if i can turn it around and become like Kim Clijsters.

Its gonna be a long and great weekend. 4 hari cuti...tak great ape tu. Happy Holidays. And Happy Rabbit Chinese New Year to my chinese friends.

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Getting active...

Ok, i update my blog now as frequent as me sprawling on the sofa with a book while drinking hot cocoa on a rainy day.

1 reason is, aku tak berapa nak ada masa. Another thing is, aku tatau nak tulis ape. Dua-dua alasan tu berkait rapat. Bila takda masa, ko mana la nak terfikir topic nak canang kat sini kan.

Anak aku dah 5 bulan....hahaha. Aku jadi cam dalam twilight dowh kalau pk pasal ni. Pasal anak aku dah 5 bulan ni la. Cam cepatnye la. Cam tak caya pun ada sikit-sikit. Tapi memang percaya la kan, lebih-lebih lagi bila atas bahu aku ada bau masam dia muntah tadi....hehe. Aku still breastfeeding, Alhamdulillah. Rezeki kecit tu.

Bila breastfeeding ni, badan tak naik. Kalori yang kau makan dah burn jadi susu kan. Dia lambat la kalau nak naik pun. Kalori eaten with a purpose. Aku tak exercise langsung. Tapi kan, one fine day, aku terfikir...apa jadi kalau aku stop breastfeeding. Damn! Dengan stamina aku out sume...apa la nak jadi ni. Mesti aku jadi belon la kan. Hot air balloon....ha amik ko, besar gaban.

Eh tak bleh jadi!.....

Jadi aku pun decide, i have to do something before things gets out of hand. I have to exercise. I have to play sports. Aku dah nak setahun kot tak berlari. Yer la....dari perut boyot, sampai anak aku dah 5 bulan ni kan. Cam pengkau je dah kaki.

But first thing, first....i have to get a sports bra. Will get it this weekend. Dulu aku tak exercise kalau tak pakai sports bra. So uncomfortable. Sekarang juga sama, aku takkan exercise kalau takde sports bra. Lebih-lebih lagi sekarang la. Sejak aku ada extra sket kat situ, kena beli baru la. Kena support lebih sket. Sekarang memang aku takkan tak pakai sports bra.

For starters, i'll do brisk walking and slow jogg. Then maybe next weekend, or another next weekend, i'll be playing badminton or tennis. And how can i forget swimming! Kena beli suit baru. Laki aku soh beli suit tutup aurat plak tuh...huhuuh. Aku bukan ape, tapi aku rasa suit swimming muslimah tu.....cam lawak badut freak show sket la (sorry mereka yang memakai). Aku sangat-sangat-sangat-sangat-sangat-sangat-sangat keberatan nak pakai. Sumpah aku sangat keberatan. Ada alternatif tak orang yang bertudung nak swim? Orang yang memang swim tau suit muslimah tu tak sesuai untuk swimming. How can you swim when the baju is flapping all around you? (baju dia besar ok). Tapi tatau la, maybe sebab aku tak pernah pakai lagi, aku dah judge sesuka hati. Tengok la cemana...oh well. Aku nak cari alternatif. Tanak aku pakai suit tu...walau laki aku kata elok setara mana pun.

Here's to a better health and good strong body!

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After a few months...

Hola....

Huwahhh...lama aku tak tulis pape ni. Busy ok...i busy.

Aynur dan 3 bulan lebih. Dekat 4 bulan dah. Besar dah dia. Masih fresh dlm kepala otak aku, masa nak bersalin tu...masa pantang. And then masalah masa aynur's first few weeks. Bukan masalah ape. She's a spanking healthy baby. Just Aynur is a colicky baby. Colic dia agak teruk dan pelik cos it goes around the clock. Orang cakap biasanya colic start senja, pastu tengah malam ok. Tapi dia, siang-siang buta pun melalak. Aku tido dalam 2 jam sahaja. On a good day, aku dapat tido 4 jam. Aku dok umah mak aku...tapi mak aku kerja. So mostly aku jaga sorang. Din balik kerja petang, mak aku balik kerja petang....baru la ada orang tolong sikit. Pastu malam diorg nak tido gak, esoknya keje. So malam-malam, aku berjaga dengan dia la.

At the age of 28, I cant believe im still learning something new. At the age of 28, baru aku tau pengorbanan seorang mak. Susah payah mak aku dulu. Mak aku cakap, aku dulu pun selalu nangis. In fact kitorang semua adik-beradik colic. Mak aku jaga sendiri je. No other help. Nenek aku dari kampung datang sekejap je. Seminggu je kot. Lepas tu mak and bapak aku on their own every day. Struggle sendiri dengan baby yang colic. Mak aku pulak dulu kerja kerajaan. Time tu cuti pantang 40 hari je. Lepas tu pergi kerja. Balik kerja struggle dengan colicky baby sampai pagi. Then entah tido tak tido, pastu gi kerja balik pagi tu. All of that, and still have so much love for their children and manage to run a family. It makes me appreciate my parents more nowadays. They do it themselves....susah payah from scratch. Aku kecik sampai besar, semua dalam tangan mama and abah aku sendiri. I appreciate them more now....at the ripe age of 28.

Skang aynur dah besar. Nak 4 bulan dah. Dia besar dalam tangan aku sendiri....90% (maybe even more) dalam tangan mama and abah dia sendiri. Parents aku and parents Din ada tolong, but mostly us. Semua orang akan rasa anak dia sangat special. Including me. Anak-anak kita, mestilah istimewa di mata kita kan. Bila aku tengok aynur skang, i feel like all the susah payah dulu, berbaloi sangat. Aku plak ada banyak time dengan dia sbb aku work from home. So bile aku cam takde scheduled work hari tu, aku jaga dia sendiri. Dia start senyum secara sedar kat orang dlm umur 1 1/2 bulan. At around that time pun, dia punya colic dah takde. Adui la, manis nye bila baby senyum kan. Nampak gusi merah-merah. Cair bergolek kat situ jugak dowh. Kalau aku tegur, nyanyi-nyanyi kat dia, dia senyum. Then dia start struggle nak bergolek 2 1/2 bulan. At 3 months dia memang pantang letak baring dah, terus dia akan pusing dan scan environment. Nampak sesiapa, dia tegur la....bwat bunyik dia. And dia minum banyak nye la susu. Badan aku susut masa pantang tu jugak. At 3 months (around 2 weeks ago) she's 64 cm, 6.3 kg. Good weight i think. Bile tengok dia skang...aku puas....hehe.

Aku sendiri kurang time untuk diri sendiri. Tak boleh jadi. Aku tak ingat bila aku shopping utk diri sendiri. Untuk kecantikan diri. I have to build myself up again. Dah lama aku melupakan diri sendiri. Im gonna book myself for a spa time. Buy make up, buy good clothes (breastfeeding clothes lagi), buy shoes, wear heels after months of stacking them somewhere i forget...these few months is dedicated to building myself up again, now that aynur is stable.

Here's to a new me....hehehe.

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